the first time i quit was after the explosion and i wasn;t allowed to smoke in the hospital. Years later I started again after seeing good will hunting and a guy I was seeing smoked,then it got to be too expensive.
I haven't gotten a response from my nephew and don't expect too.
I am almost finished with the book I am reading.

Gosh I heard a quote this morning I was going to put on here. Lets see
if I can get even close. about a books.

A book can take you to many places.

I thought it was appropriate. Reading always took me to many towns I thought might be fun to visit. I loved the way the writer told about the areas.
:grouphug::hug:

Donna

ps, THanks for telling me what it was you stopped

When are you going to start a new book?
Who and what have you been reading?

last night. julia quinn something like a make believe bridegroom/ i have read a lot of her books. then anne gracie. she has a perfect series. I just got the final one in the mail, the perfect waltz-just finished the perfect stranger-and two others and i love gaelen foley. just finished um my notorious gentleman-have only read two of her books but bought a lot of them. she is a delightful writer. I have to look to see what I read. gained two pounds rats

You really are doing a lot of reading! :)

2 pounds is not much. It could be a fluctuation, and you could get on the scale today and find that those pounds are gone.

I had cookies yesterday :-(
today I go for tests. a nuclear stress test,echocardigram and two others.no caffeine since yesterday amd 11am-I am afraid I am going to sneeze and itch

Good luck with the tests bobby.
I hope they come out clear.
hoping they can give you posititve feed back right away so you won't worry about the results.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

the nuclear stress test went well. I don't know about the echocardiogram and the other test was postponed because of time.today I can hardly walk

I am glad that the stress test went well.
Sorry you ran out of time.
bizi

I haven't been able to fall asleep. I am so up because of the test. Nuclear stress test - About - Mayo Clinic
I an going to call and see if they also meant the ecocardiogram, It was so weird. this week I didn't feel anxious about having the tests. that is so unlike me.
I had convinced myself I was going to need an operation. I am so tired all the time. It must be the repercussions of the stroke. I started thinking it was my heart.vI am going to stop taking the statin I just started. My walking and balance have gotten much worse. I had a bad reaction to statins before. I probably will have another stroke with my high cholesterol. My diet isn't that bad.'I guess I will read until I fall asleep. I was going to get my hair cut with somebody new but without sleep I don't think so

I'm glad that they told you the stress test went well. I hope that you find out the results of the echo soon, and the results of that test were positive as well. I'm glad that you aren't worrying as much as usual :hug:

I'm sorry that the tests made you so weak tho :hug::hug::hug:

I can understand why you decided to stop taking the statin if you have had trouble with them in the past. It may not be a bad idea to let the doctor know tho.

I don't think the tests made me weak. except when they took my blood pressure before each one the top number was 112. I think it is the statin.also i didn;t have caffeine for 24 hours

I think the depression is coming back and the anxiety. It was fantastic while it lasted. I slept a little. I think I will make some coffee and read. I forgot if I wrote that three nice things happened today. It was raining but I finally went to have my haircut. Getting a cab for the short walk was hard but a woman volunteered to hale one down for me. that was so kind. then the cab driver didn;t want to charge me because it was so short, I told him he was so sweet but tipped him and paid the fare. the hairdresser was nice and helped me put on my coat. then I tried to get a cab and couldn't and another woman walked me home and supported me with her arm. we talked the whole time. She has a home in italy and we talked about it and my love of rome and Latin.

It's wonderful that you met all those nice people in one day! :)

Did you feel better after having your hair cut? How did it turn out?

wasn't I fortunate to meet all those people> the people at the hospital were nice too. the people yesterday went out of their way and got wet! the hair cut is fine. I will go back. It was 20 dollars with washing. with the people and the price of the haircut a whole different impression of manhattan.
I am glad I got it out of the way. I might go back in another month to get the sides shorter.
I haven't slept much and I think the depression and anxiety are coming back.
I sort of feel like crying and feel ungrateful

Bobby,


Glad you got your haircut and happy to hear about the helpful people.




M

Bobbi
That is fantastic. I think when things like this happen there is a reason.
In this case it was because you deserved the niceness. Just keep
remembering it and hopefully this can keep happening.

Donna :hug:

my walking is better now without the statins. Pudge actually moved and played for two minutes this morning

$20 is a great price for a haircut in Manhattan! That's about what I pay if I don't have my hair dried. I had hoped you were more excited by the results tho.

I'm so happy that you're walking is better since you stopped taking the statin :)

I hope that the depression and anxiety aren't coming back :hug::hug::hug:

I'm sorry that you are feeling "ungrateful". You are so terribly hard on yourself :hug::hug::hug:

what about pudge playing for two minutes. I don't remember when she last played. It cost extra to blow dry and I said no but she did it anyways

That was nice of her.
Do you have long hair?
bizi

Now for a long time I have short hair

Dottie is like a piece of furniture now. She just lays on the same spot on the couch all the time like a slug. It's so funny to watch her on the very rare occasions when she gets going :)

my three blood tests for my heart and legs came out fine except a small leakage which I had last time

That's great, Bobby! :)

I have been thinking of God a lot. I feel so close to him. with this fatigue I really thought that it was my heart. I guess it is my stroke. He has been so good to me lately. Now Marci is working for me twice a week, Monday and tuesday. Yippee. I really love her. Yesterday I gave her a sweater and wanted to give pants but controlled myself. The other day I gave her pants. I am really scared about spending. I am almost finished with another book in the perfect series. I have one more to go. I have enough new used great books to last me a while.
love
bobby still in a good mood

Bobby, I am so glad that you still are in a good mood.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi:You-Rock:

So happy to hear that you are feeling close to God right now, and have been in a good mood!!! :):):)

It's great that you have Marci for 2 days a week now. It's good to have the extra help, and the good company :)

i still don't have my spending under control. I tried today but couldn;t control myself.

We all have our vices.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

now I am really scared. I will try harder. I officially heard from my heart doctor's office and was told the three tests came out fine and do what you have been doing lol

That's great! :D

I'm sorry that you are still having a hard time reigning in your spending. I hate it when I go through my spending sprees... the money goes so fast. I hope that you will start to have better luck starting today :hug::hug::hug:

my blood pressure is 80 0ver 60

I can't find my blood pressure monitor so i sent away for a new one. there were some negative reviews but mostly positive ones. I will see the doctor in two weeks. He said it is dangerous. I am skipping one of the blood pressure pills.
I am still not depressed even though I thought i could die.
My therapist came over yesterday and abby put on such a show. she really likes my therapist. for the first time she jumped from my high cabinet directly to the floor. wow.
I am really scared about money. Hopefully no more bidding. Maybe fear will make me stop. or terror.
I am not anxious or as I said depressed. Now to get back to reading.

I don't remember if I skipped the morning pill,ramipril and I am afraid of taking a double dose. I guess I must be scared. I am not taking one tonite

80 is a very low systolic blood pressure reading. If you feel light-headed, dizzy, or really weak, you need to see a doctor right away :hug:

I'm glad you bought a new monitor and are skipping the BP med. Drinking more water may help to bring it up a bit, too.
To be safe, try not to get up too fast from laying/sitting/standing positions.

I'm sorry you have more s*** to deal with, Bobby :hug:
I'm glad that you're not depressed or anxious right now tho :hug::hug::hug:

Best of luck staying off of eBay :hug:

I am basically staying in bed and reading and sleeping and waiting for the bp monitor to come tomorrow.

I am glad that you ordered a new bp monitor too.
Kay gave you good advice.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

abby rubbed noses with me. that may have been the first time

that is so sweet...
bizi