yesterday I went out with cecilia for dinner. I almost fell three times.I tried to go up the curb and lost my balance but cecilia caught me. then was level walking and I lost my balance and again cecilia caught me. then I had the hardest time climbing the two stairs to the restaurant and cecilia supported me as I started swinging

I'm so sorry about the falls and the close calls!!! :hug::hug::hug:
I'm so glad that you didn't injure yourself worse. How is your back?

I'm very concerned that this is happening so often, and out of the blue...
How do your legs feel when you walk? Is it a weakness just in your bad leg, weakness in general, or do you feel another change?

You were having some back pain before all of this. Was it a sharp pain or a dull pain, etc?

Are you still working with the PT?

I hope that your back feels better soon :hug::hug::hug:

Please don't walk outside of your apartment by yourself until you feel more steady, and be very careful when you are at home. You are precious and loved (((HUGS)))

it is a dull pain across my lower back. before it was just on my weak side. I am still seeing the p.t. I want her to have me walk up and down stairs. I think I got worse and I am scared. I rode the bike two days ago for 17 minutes. I wonder if that had anything to do with it. also on one of the exercises called clams she pushed my weak leg down a few times. I don't think she should have done it. she had me squat without touching the bed. She just started that a couple of times ago. the antidepressants are working. I don't really feel steady. I think it is my right leg. Gapentin supposed helps nerve pain'
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bobby
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Bobby

Yes, gabapentin does help nerve pain. So be careful if it should
start making you see that your body doesn't hurt as much. It
might make you think your stronger than you are. Just meaning
don't stop being careful when you walk. I used to take gabapentin
and loved taking it. I didn't have to worry about being careful
when I walked because I found I was clumsy period. So I was careful
walking period.

Maybe if when you go out you could find a cane you like to use. It would
help steady you. My daughter-in-law Meluvja has an leg brace but before
she got that she always had her cane with her. I also have an cane.
But the one in my car isn't exactly the one I like I have to figure out why.
Its something about the size, its not exactly high enough I think.

So I'm looking at it.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I use a cane

Thanks for saying so. I didn't know that.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I am going to use my recumbent bike more often .It says it is good for lower back pain and that was part of the problem.

The recumbent bike is a good idea, but 17 minutes is a long time. How long were you riding it for before?

Gabapentin is really good for neurological pain. That's why most people take it. I used to take a TON of it for my pain, but it no longer works for me for that purpose. It can cause a sedation and put you at a greater risk for falls. Since this is a new med for you, maybe that is what is causing the falls/close calls? It takes a little while to adjust to any dose.

I think the p.t. is pushing me too hard and making my muscles hurt. I think i over did it with 17 minutes. I am going to try five minutes twice a day. I keep
on thinking that God is with me so I shouldn't be lonely. I started buying again and eating things I shouldn't eat like ice cream and potato chips.

I think 5 minutes a day is reasonable, Bobby. 17 minutes is a lot. Overuse of your muscles could cause weakness and make you prone to falls. If you're being overworked at PT, too that would just make things worse :hug::hug::hug:

I would ask the PT to reassess you because of your recent falls/near misses to see if she can detect any new issues JIK something new is going on.

Do you think you are buying more and eating things you shouldn't because of loneliness? :hug::hug::hug:

Bobby

i would say 5 minutes twice an day is a very good amount.

I would also say if the second time isn't something taht comes
up. Don't sweat it. I can say that I spent 10 minutes on the
bike the other day. I almost always spent 10 minutes on a bike
at therapy. I will be spending a Little less and working up
now. I was having a sore back.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I think loneliness has a lot to do with it. I only like kind people and staying in the apartment doesn't help me meet people. I told the P.T. to go easier. she showed me how to walk up stairs. I have to start with the strong leg and couldn't do it with the weak one. That is why I lost my balance the other night and had so much trouble. I think my depression comes back at night. I am taking 2mg of klonopin. I hope the psychiatrist refills the prescription.

I wake up depressed and then I take my pills and the depression usually lifts. Now I am waiting

I hope you have a good day bobby.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

On stairs, you "go up with the good, and down with the bad," which means when you climb the stairs, you start going up with your good leg, and when you go down you start with your bad leg.

Does your PT think that your cane is the right length for you?

I'm sorry that your depression sets in at night :hug::hug::hug:
I think that is common. A lot of people start to feel lonely at night, especially very late at night :hug:

I'm glad that after taking your pills seems to let your depression during the day :hug:
I hope that your pdoc gives you a refill for the Klonopin.

the p.t. adjusted the cane. I could hardly walk when I got out of bed. My lower back really hurt. I am fighting depression now. the pills are not working as well.Pudge really ate this morning and finally did her routine of following me to the kitchen so I added more food to her dish and she is still eatig. cecilia invited me over yesterday for tiramisu. I am sort of worried. I made the appt with new psychiatrist on may 20. I wonder if I should have made it earlier.

Bobby

I hope as the day goes along. You start to feel better and things
look up.
Donna :hug::grouphug:

That's good about Pudge.


I hope that the adjustments to the cane help.


M

I wake up very depressed and then I take the pills and the depression lifts. I am hoping she writes a script for klonopin because that is the only thing that works.I am very nervous. It is alful to be so dependent on drugs and a person prescribing them

I'm glad that your PT adjusted the length of your cane for you. It can make a big difference. I don't know why she didn't do it before.

Please try not to second-guess yourself about not making the appointment with the other pdoc earlier. Your last appointment with your current one went well, and that's why you decided to wait. It was the right decision for you at the time :hug:

It is lousy to be dependent on medications, but some of us really need to be on them, myself included. I wish that you had someone that you could depend on to prescribe you what you need when you need it- without any hassle. I hope that your pdoc will write the Klonopin script for you. It's obvious from reading your posts that the stuff she's tried giving you wasn't/isn't working :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that the pills are helping with your depression- at least right after you take them. I wonder why they're not working as well at different times of the day. That's something I think you should ask your pdoc about (((HUGS)))

(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

It is only in the morning when I wake up and they start wearing off late at night.
she examined the cane immediately and said it was fine.

I am so sad and lonely and worried about the psychiatrist who i see on tuesday

I wish I could give you some real (((HUGS))) Bobby

what is your klonipin dose and frequency?
bizi

2mg twice a day

For give my memory.
Are you tapering off of it? or just restarted it again?
Do you think it is helping?
bizi

I tapered off to 1 mg twice a day but still had a lot of anxiety. I went back to 2 and it has helped. I just walked the halls four times and spent 10 minutes on the bike. I will try to force myself to do it everyday.I was tired to begin with but then I got energy. I am going over cecilia's at 5

I am so proud/happy for you for your efforts in exercising!
((((HUGS))))):grouphug:
bizi


To go from 2mg to 1mg quickly is a bad idea.
klonipin has to be tapered to bring it down slowly over time. If not you will have severe symptoms of anxiety, just for your info if you ever want to that again.
bizi

that is what she told me to do

I am sorry, I don't want to come across as a know it all....

not sure what she told you....did you mean she told you to go from 2mg to 1mg? She should have told you to taper down slowly., perhaps this is why you were so much more anxious?

I am glad that you are back on the 2mg and that you feel it is helping.
((((HUGS)))
bizi

yes she did

I really feel like your pdoc will give you the prescription for Klonopin when you see her tomorrow, Bobby. It sounds like she recognizes that what she was giving you before wasn't working, and you do much better on it. I will keep my fingers crossed for you :hug::hug::hug:

You are doing a fantastic job exercising! :)
Just be careful you are not overdoing it :hug:
How is your balance?

Did you have a nice time over at Cecilia's yesterday?

Bobby

I kind of wonder if she wanted to see if you would try to go
off it. And what would happen. It might be that it was to
fast. I honestly have no clue. I am hoping that she will
give you an script tomorrow also.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

It was nice. we watched golf.

It's good to hear that you felt some benefit in exercising.

Also that you are back to the Klonopin dose that makes you comfortable.



Did you say that you have a new psychiatrist today? I hope that all goes
well.


M

I see her today. I am depressed. pUdge hardly ate yesterday. I have a stomach ache and my back and legs hurt. rats

good luck today!
((((HUGS))))
bizi

Bobby

Remember that pudge will eat more some days than others.
And will need to drink more than eat most of the time.

So try and average how much by that. Sorry your legs and
back are sore. Try and remember it might be that you walked
and road your bike. So maybe they should be a little bit.

So try taking some pain meds, like ibprofen or aleve or something.
And heating pad on the back and seeing how it feels.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

I made an appt with the new psychiatrist for april 1 at 3:30. the other one wouldn't give me 2 mg of klonopin. she asked me about politics and I was bored. then I started talking about my family and she wasn't supportive