It sounds like the visit you had with the Rabbi was very pleasant and fruitful! It seems like he is wise beyond his years.

Maybe you need spiritual vs. secular guidance right now?
It seems like your young Rabbi has drawn you out, and you have been doing some soul searching on your own since his visit, and I think that's just wonderful :hug::hug::hug:

I wish you could see him every week.

you know I think I am damaged beyond repair besides my mental illness and I just have to keep on turning to God. Therapy probably will never help. I practically always depressed, obsessed with death, worried about money and catastrophize(sp) and think I will have another stroke. I am haunted by my sister's death..

(((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi

I just bought diatomaceous earth for the earth problem. I hope it works. I got six hours of sleep. I also lost a pound. I think xanax is helping my overeating. I will see. I still have anxiety but it isn't as high as before. I am trying bizu's suggestion of one m in the day and two at night. I won't tell the doctor. this way also I won't run out of pills which I would otherwise. Cecilia thinks I should try another therapist. she loves hers. I have had two therapists that I enjoyed but they didn't help me and others I just plain didn't like.

I only had one therapist I really liked. I saw her for 7yrs before she left the practice I go to. She set one of her own up pretty far away from me and she doesn't accept my insurance.

The one they gave me afterwards was very, very nice, but totally f- clueless.


I'm so glad you are sleeping and your anxiety is better, Bobby :)

Bobby

Any chance you can start interviewing the therapist. See if they are going to be what you need. I realize it sounds odd, but that is just what Derrick just did. And it worked for him.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

that is a good idea if i decide to try another one. I don't know if it because of my stroke or what but I noticed about 12 times today there was some water on my terrace and that was all I thought. downstairs called up while ago and asked about a leak.it seemed my terrace was leaking to the apartment below mine and I didn't even think of it. scarey.

That's a great idea, Donna. Maybe you could request a telephone interview with your next potential therapist beforehand, Bobby.

We have things dripping/falling onto our deck all the time, but it's from our upstair neighbors... they are a- holes.

I just thought mine was a puddle and it didn't register that the drain was clogged. the plumber took almost a half an hour to unclog it. I was the a_hole. I hope it was just the result of the stroke rather than something more serious like the beginning of something. I don't think a therapist will help me.

Bobby

I don't live in an apartment, but Derrick does. And if that were something that could happen with his. He wouldn't think about the pipe or anything else being clogged either. So don't be so hard on yourself. Next time you see a puddle
or anything like that out there, I"m sure you will get ahold of maintenance
to come check. And I'm sure that if the downstairs tenant had just thought about it they could easily have just come and asked you and you would have let them look and see whether you had the problem.

Derrick's downstairs tenant is his biggest help. And the person that comes up and takes care of lots of his problems. So if Derrick was creating something that was causing a problem for him, he would know it was ok.

And I'm pretty sure your neighbors downstairs if they know you do too.
If they don't then try and make sure the people that maintain the place know to tell them your sorry.

Donna :grouphug::hug: