Hypomania can be very enjoyable, but can come with some unpleasantries like the insomnia you are experiencing now :hug::hug::hug:

Staying in bed is seemingly contradictory to hypomania, but you are driven to keep reading, and that's where you typically do it, so I think it fits :hug:

I bought some Halo Top ice-cream that you had been talking about a while back. I got Corey peanut butter cup, and I got myself the chocolate mocha chip. I dug into mine last night, and I wasn't bowled over because the flavor was really strong. Corey hasn't tried his yet.
Breyer's came out with a low calorie ice cream called "Delights." We tried the chocolate flavor, and it was pretty good.

I haven't tried either of those yet. I am hooked on strawberry and mint chip. I just wish it weren't as expensive,I am also on a cookie kick from brandless -they are three dollars and I have tried a few-they are pretty good.
I hope I can clean up a little for marci. I think the cookies are preventing me from losing weight. I hope i don't crash

I hope you don't crash either bobby...happy that you are enjoying some things especially your reading again. You have been depressed for so long. You definitely deserved a break!

I almost bought the mint chip! I paid $4.50 for the Halo Tops... the same as the new Breyer's, and about the same as Ben & Jerry's.

I forgot I still had Thin Mint Girl Scout Cookies... I ate the entire last sleeve last night. I've been eating a ridiculous amount of chocolate-something-or-other every night. My sweet tooth is really out of control lately!

How are things going with Marci? How is she?

I know it's hard not to worry about the tides turning mood-wise :hug::hug::hug:
We are all crossing our fingers for you, and hoping your good mood lasts a long time! :hug:

I pay 5.99! Marci is working out great. I wonder if you are fighting depression with all the chocolate. I have also been eating frozen blueberries and just ordered blueberry and green tea. I just saw the Kentucky Derby 218 Kentucky Derby I FULL RACE I NBC Sports - YouTube Secretariat my favorite ran it slower.

I like HALO Top as well but have not had it for a while because
for months hubby has been buying the groceries.
(It does have more protein than regular ice cream)


Maybe I should put it on a list for him.


M

i have been feeling really crappy. my sleeping is terrible. i haven't left the apartment. I cancelled my psychiatrist's appt because i don't want to go out.

I am sorry:(
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

thanks. I feel i have no life

i took some benedryl yesterday and today and feel better. my eyes and kin aren't itchy. I had a thing with marci yesterday. she won't use the vacuum cleaner.I asked her if she could sweep deeper. she got so offended. I worried about it but she asserts herself.

I'm so sorry you feel like you have no life, Bobby. I'm in the same boat, and it just stinks :hug::hug::hug:

I'm really glad that the Benadryl helped. I think this is going to be a really bad allergy season.

I'm sorry that you had a disagreement with Marci. I don't think you were out of line in asking for her to vacuum (which she should be doing), or asking her to do a better job sweeping if she won't. I hope you don't feel badly about it, and that she just lets it go :hug:

I can't believe you have to pay a whole dollar more for the Halo Top ice cream! It must be the NYC mark up! I tried Corey's peanut butter cup flavor, and it was pretty good. It didn't have chunks of peanut butter cups like you would expect tho. It's funny... the "mocha chips" in my chocolate mocha chip were very small, which I actually liked, but WHITE, which I found to be really odd.

it is a 1.50 more. right now that isn't stopping me . I just ordered blueberry green tea. it is delicious.
you feel as if you have no life too? I think a lot about God. Most people don't interest me. I am sure I don't interest most people. Have you ever cancelled doctor's appts because you just want to be alone with your kitty cats? It is too much stress to go out? I grew up with a raging alcoholic. He didn't need to drink much before he got drunk. too bad you can't video tape corey and show him what he is like. don't let him use you as an excuse.I asked my father years later when he hardly drank why he did it and he said it felt good. I was shocked.
love
bobby

I feel like a zombie. I am totally out of control. I am going to try to walk in the hall. I haven't done that in so long. My balance is so off. I have to stop watching the stock market. two of the stocks i wanted to buy but was to scared are doing so well. I am trying to stop buying which is taking away a high I don't remember when I was last out. I am waiting to get some cookies in the mail. I will never lose weight. I am almost finished with the book I started yesterday.

In the past, when Corey has been drinking heavily like this, I have asked him if anxiety about my medical problems were part of the reason, and he's always said yes, but he has other reasons, but he doesn't want to talk about anything. This time I'm not going to bring it up or ask because he's showing absolutely no concern for me, and it seems like he's really having a grand old time.

Years ago, I would cancel appointments because I wanted to stay in the comfort of my own home, and just couldn't make myself go out. Sometimes it's hard to get myself going and get myself out the door now (for any number of reasons), but I haven't missed any appointments for that reason in a long time.


I'm sorry you are feeling like a zombie, Bobby :hug::hug::hug:
Do you feel like you are coming down from the hypomania now?

I'm glad that you are going to try walking in the hall. Could you call one of your friends to ask them to go out for a coffee with you? It sounds like your mind and body could benefit from a little trip out soon :hug::hug::hug:

I can't believe you are almost finished that book in a day! It must be a good one!

now I only go out with stella after she plays tennis and that is rarely and I can only walk two blocks. i did some leg exercises yesterday. i have come down. i keep on thinking about God.

I'm sorry you have come down, Bobby. I wish that your good mood had lasted longer :hug::hug::hug:

I hope that when you think of God right now you are finding some comfort :hug:

How are you doing, Bobby?

I tried the Breyer's Delights Mint Chip ice cream (310 calories/pint) and it was very good.

I am really down. My birthday is next week which is making it worse. I have been having morbid thoughts. I have been neglecting abby so she has been acting like a daredevil and I have been feeling guilty. I am sorry you are feeling so miserable. Hopefully it will pass soon.
Love
bobby

Bobby,

I hope that your mood improves.


M

right now I am reading two books and fixed my phone and computer yesterday

I am so glad that you fixed your phone! You are awesome!
I hope you make it a great day.
What books are you reading?
bizi:hug:

Sounds like a productive day for phone and computer work. Also reading.


M

I am reading books by Patricia Oliver. I woke up so depressed. Pudge was by my side and abby has forgiven me.

Good for you for fixing your computer and phone! :)

I'm so sorry that you are feeling depressed again :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that you have your books and kitties to provide some comfort tho. I'm happy that Abby has forgiven you! :hug:

Do you think you can get the Breyer's Delights? Are you interested in trying them?

i wrote to fresh direct and asked them to add it to their selection. they already sell breyers. here is hoping
love
bobby

I'm not buying Halo Top anymore. I've tried the Chocolate Mocha Chip, Peanut Butter Cup, and the Cookies and Cream, and none of them have done it for me.

I've heard that most of our vanilla comes from Madagascar and there is a problem with the supply, so they expect the price of at least vanilla ice cream to go up.

interesting. look what I found. this is my middle nephew. How nothing is what matters the most | Andy Goldfarb | TEDxBeaconStreet - YouTube
I found what he had to say and what he experienced really interesting

I wonder if he considers meditation a form of doing nothing?
Great Ted talk!
bizi:)

I have to admit that I didn't watch the whole video, but what I did watch was really interesting.

I'm sorry that you aren't in contact with him, Bobby. It seems like he is a positive person who can turn lemons into lemonade, and could possibly help you try to do the same :hug::hug::hug:

But then again, it was a speech. You never know what he is like in real life...

I have andy's cell phone number but i don't have his email. I am debating whether or not to ask alex for it. He sent me a family picture over twenty years ago and I never responded- bipolar- i have made mammoth mistakes with major mammoth consequences because of my precious bipolar.

I apologized to my m-i-l the other day for things said years ago.
She accepted my apology.
It made me feel better.


bizi

That's sweet, Bizi.



M

At first, I was struck with how high energy he is and how tough he is on himself.
The Muhammad Ali quote about "Is that all you got," was pretty revealing in terms of all that he ended up accomplishing
in terms of his new mindset.

=-=

Interesting that he said, he completely surrendered himself.
It's true about how the pauses in music are more important than the notes.
The same with life as he says.:):):):)

He's a good looking guy.
I hope he is doing well now.

M

He would likely be ok if you sent him a text mentioning how much you appreciated his Ted Talk and requesting his email and giving him yours.


M

I don't know how to do texts and how to work my phone. I really screwed it up. I am afraid

I just wrote an email to alex asking him a favor to forward the email to andy. I apologized to andy for not responding to the card he sent me twenty years ago and I wrote that i am bipolar and do stupid things. I wrote that I immensely enjoyed his ted talk and was sorry to hear about his suffering that led him grow higher. I said God bless you and family love bobby

I am with you there, Bobby. We need to try to find a way to forgive ourselves :hug::hug::hug:

I hope that your middle nephew responds so your email, and I hope that he is more sympathetic and behaves better than the other two little s**ts :hug:

you really made me laugh. i hope alex forwards it. little paranoia?

alex wrote me and said sent :-)

I am so glad that you did this. I sure you feel better having done this.I am hoping you get a response from him.
((((HUGS)))))
bizi