thank you so much. I will walk in the hall three times today and lift lefts.last might I had depressing dreams about my death

I'm sure Robert has your best interests at heart. I remember you said he doesn't exactly have a gentle touch :hug:

I'm glad that you are going to start doing more walking. In addition to the physical benefits, the exercise may help with your mood, too. But please don't push yourself too hard too fast :hug::hug::hug:

I'm sorry that you had that awful dream, Bobby :hug::hug::hug:
You seem to go periods where you think a lot about death. I wish I could remember what helped with that in the past :hug::hug::hug:

I have also been thinking a lot about my dead sister. I walked almost to the bank and got a little help and then took a cab home. two blocks
a new rabbi is coming over at 3:30

suri is in beijing china in a qi dong retreat! I am so excited

the dreams really scared me and and the going backwards and by accident i found the p.t. who i liked but who will probably get mad at me. I just left a message to call me

why do you think the PT would be mad at you?
bizi

i dropped out

the visit with the young rabbi went very well. he spent about an hour here, he was adorable. he asked me a lot of good questions. it was like therapy. he said i would see him again

I am glad that you had a good experience with the young rabbi.
bizi

time for lease renewal. they are already few days late past sending it. my anxiety is sky high as usual. i took four m of klonopin. I know it is crazy. i also have to stop spending money. the overspending is crazy.the eczema is driving me crazier. my eyes are itching and besides my faces my arms are itchy.
what a mess

I'm so sorry that your eczema is so bad. I know it can be terribly itchy and/or sore, and unsightly at times :hug::hug::hug:
Are you using a thin layer of a good moisturizer on your face before applying any eczema treatments? Anything with SPF in it is going to really irritate it tho.
If it continues on like this, you may want to make an appointment with your PCP or a dermatologist to see if they can give you a script for something stronger :hug:

I'm so glad that you liked the new Rabbi! It sounds like you had a nice visit. It's great that he asked you so many great questions and his visit was kinda therapeutic.

Don't worry about the PT being mad at you for dropping out. They run into that all the time. I dropped out of PT for my shoulders not too long ago, but they welcomed me back with open arms when I came back to do pool PT for my gait.

The program Suri is going to sounds interesting. I hope that she has a good experience and it helps her. I read the article that you put a link to, and it said that it was for people in remission... is Suri in remission now?

I think Suri is in remission but she is taking daily pills with side effects. i am taking cortizone and neoporine

IMHO, you're using the best treatment you can for the eczema. Just make sure you gently dab off any excess ointments so that the spots can still breathe :hug:

I am sorry your anxiety is so high.
I am hoping the klonipin helps.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

the klonopin isn't helping. i have been reading and thinking of God almost at the same time. I gained back three pounds. the cats came to me. I feel so unstable. I go to the new gp on Monday. I am so worried needlessly about the lease but I can't help it

kate spade
 

Bobby

I'm so sorry you are worried about your lease.

Maybe you should start planning on your new lease coming in July instead.
So you don't get worried or start getting anxious till then.
I realize it doesn't work that way, but it would give you another month to
not worry, since they are always late anyway.

I think you will do great with your new gp.
Donna :grouphug:

you made me feel better. I always have free floating anxiety and then I attach to something going on in my life. now it is the lease. i'll take action in july if it is a month late.thank you.
bobby

I left a message at carter burden center for the social worker who helped me last time on the lease and has a copy of it. i can't find it. I dared to open my stock acct. it was okay. i am going to see if my doctor will increase my risperdal. i need more

Donna
the social worker called me back and gave me the same advice you gave me about waiting til the end of the month since they were late the last time. thank you

I'm glad you are going to try to put off worrying about the lease until the end of the month. I know it's hard not to think about these things, to put them on the back burner, but I think you can do it :hug::hug::hug:

I'm glad that your kitties are coming to you! :)
And I'm glad that your stocks are okay... one less (big) worry :hug:

I am glad that you have your kitties to love!
((((HUGS))))
have a good weekend bobby!
bizi

I forced myself to go around the block to meet Stella for coffee. what a disaster. going there was difficult. i had my cane but I couldn't walk straight.

coming back at times i couldnt walk and stella kept making sound that got me nervous. I wonder if i will be okay when i have the appt for the dr appt on monday early monday morning.
i wonder if she is going to have coffee with me anymore

just called the hospital and they can get me a wheelchair! that worry gone.

Good job planning ahead.
bizi

for the past several days my back has also been hurting. I am really scared.
I don't have motivation because I am depressed and tired and hurt. I might see if Marci, my aide, will go for a short walk if i can do it.I won't eat anything before I go to the doctor's tomorrow because a lot of times that makes it worse
Memory & thinking ability keep getting worse for years after a stroke, new study finds. ANN ARBOR, Mich. — A stroke happens in an instant. ... But new research shows that these problems with memory and thinking ability keep getting worse for years afterward – and happen faster than normal brain aging.Jul 7, 2015
Not long ago, it was thought that the brain had little ability to repair itself following stroke. We know, however, that individuals can and do regain function. There is an increasing amount of research indicating that the brain is a fighter when damaged and does attempt to heal itself.

How does the brain heal?

We now know that the brain has the ability to change over its lifetime. So the question arises: Can the brain repair itself after a stroke? And if so, how?

The initial recovery following stroke is most likely due to decreased swelling of brain tissue, removal of toxins from the brain, and improvement in the circulation of blood in the brain. Cells damaged, but not beyond repair, will begin to heal and function more normally. Rehabilitation therapies stimulate sprouting of existing nerve cells, causing them to make connections to other nerve cells. The brain can recruit surviving parts to take over the functions of the damaged areas.

The brain can create new nerve cells

Neuroscientists previously believed that the brain cells you were born with would be the only ones you would ever have. More recent research also suggests that the brain may actually create new nerve cells through a process called neurogenesis. Stem-cell research is now under way to see if this new nerve-cell growth can be maximized and directed toward the most damaged areas of the brain.

An early start yields the best outcomes

There is hope for recovery following stroke. Even elderly and ill individuals who suffer a stroke can improve. The best outcomes occur when rehabilitation, including physical, occupational, and speech therapies, is started early. Early rehabilitation can also prevent greater disability that otherwise often occurs in individuals who fail to obtain treatment shortly after their stroke.

While the greatest recovery is likely to occur within the first few months following stroke, continued gains can occur over a much longer duration, even throughout the stroke patient’s lifetime.Not long ago, it was thought that the brain had little ability to repair itself following stroke. We know, however, that individuals can and do regain function. There is an increasing amount of research indicating that the brain is a fighter when damaged and does attempt to heal itself.

How does the brain heal?

We now know that the brain has the ability to change over its lifetime. So the question arises: Can the brain repair itself after a stroke? And if so, how?

The initial recovery following stroke is most likely due to decreased swelling of brain tissue, removal of toxins from the brain, and improvement in the circulation of blood in the brain. Cells damaged, but not beyond repair, will begin to heal and function more normally. Rehabilitation therapies stimulate sprouting of existing nerve cells, causing them to make connections to other nerve cells. The brain can recruit surviving parts to take over the functions of the damaged areas.

The brain can create new nerve cells

Neuroscientists previously believed that the brain cells you were born with would be the only ones you would ever have. More recent research also suggests that the brain may actually create new nerve cells through a process called neurogenesis. Stem-cell research is now under way to see if this new nerve-cell growth can be maximized and directed toward the most damaged areas of the brain.

An early start yields the best outcomes

There is hope for recovery following stroke. Even elderly and ill individuals who suffer a stroke can improve. The best outcomes occur when rehabilitation, including physical, occupational, and speech therapies, is started early. Early rehabilitation can also prevent greater disability that otherwise often occurs in individuals who fail to obtain treatment shortly after their stroke.

While the greatest recovery is likely to occur within the first few months following stroke, continued gains can occur over a much longer duration, even throughout the stroke patient’s lifetime.Not long ago, it was thought that the brain had little ability to repair itself following stroke. We know, however, that individuals can and do regain function. There is an increasing amount of research indicating that the brain is a fighter when damaged and does attempt to heal itself.

How does the brain heal?

We now know that the brain has the ability to change over its lifetime. So the question arises: Can the brain repair itself after a stroke? And if so, how?

The initial recovery following stroke is most likely due to decreased swelling of brain tissue, removal of toxins from the brain, and improvement in the circulation of blood in the brain. Cells damaged, but not beyond repair, will begin to heal and function more normally. Rehabilitation therapies stimulate sprouting of existing nerve cells, causing them to make connections to other nerve cells. The brain can recruit surviving parts to take over the functions of the damaged areas.

The brain can create new nerve cells

Neuroscientists previously believed that the brain cells you were born with would be the only ones you would ever have. More recent research also suggests that the brain may actually create new nerve cells through a process called neurogenesis. Stem-cell research is now under way to see if this new nerve-cell growth can be maximized and directed toward the most damaged areas of the brain.

An early start yields the best outcomes

There is hope for recovery following stroke. Even elderly and ill individuals who suffer a stroke can improve. The best outcomes occur when rehabilitation, including physical, occupational, and speech therapies, is started early. Early rehabilitation can also prevent greater disability that otherwise often occurs in individuals who fail to obtain treatment shortly after their stroke.

While the greatest recovery is likely to occur within the first few months following stroke, continued gains can occur over a much longer duration, even throughout the stroke patient’s lifetime.Not long ago, it was thought that the brain had little ability to repair itself following stroke. We know, however, that individuals can and do regain function. There is an increasing amount of research indicating that the brain is a fighter when damaged and does attempt to heal itself.

How does the brain heal?

We now know that the brain has the ability to change over its lifetime. So the question arises: Can the brain repair itself after a stroke? And if so, how?

The initial recovery following stroke is most likely due to decreased swelling of brain tissue, removal of toxins from the brain, and improvement in the circulation of blood in the brain. Cells damaged, but not beyond repair, will begin to heal and function more normally. Rehabilitation therapies stimulate sprouting of existing nerve cells, causing them to make connections to other nerve cells. The brain can recruit surviving parts to take over the functions of the damaged areas.

The brain can create new nerve cells

Neuroscientists previously believed that the brain cells you were born with would be the only ones you would ever have. More recent research also suggests that the brain may actually create new nerve cells through a process called neurogenesis. Stem-cell research is now under way to see if this new nerve-cell growth can be maximized and directed toward the most damaged areas of the brain.

An early start yields the best outcomes

There is hope for recovery following stroke. Even elderly and ill individuals who suffer a stroke can improve. The best outcomes occur when rehabilitation, including physical, occupational, and speech therapies, is started early. Early rehabilitation can also prevent greater disability that otherwise often occurs in individuals who fail to obtain treatment shortly after their stroke.

While the greatest recovery is likely to occur within the first few months following stroke, continued gains can occur over a much longer duration, even throughout the stroke patient’s lifetime.

I'm glad that you called ahead and checked about the wheelchair. That will really make things easier for you :hug:

I hope that your appointment goes okay. Is this a new PCP?

I bet Marci will be willing to walk with you. She seems like the type of person who would want to help you as much as she can :hug:

yes this is a new one and i don't know what she is going to do.

I don't think I am going to tell the doctor I might have had a mini stroke. I am on medication. I don't want any more tests. If it were easy getting around it would be different. Yesterday I played with my cats for a half an hour. they had fun. I feel guilty that i don't do it more often

Oh, no Bobby! You feel like you may have had a mini stroke? :hug::hug::hug:
I'm sorry I don't remember you telling us that. When did it happen?

You should tell your new PCP because mini strokes can be warning strokes that a major stroke may happen in the future :hug::hug::hug:
It doesn't matter if you are walking well or not. It's something that your doctor needs to at least monitor.

Your appointment with the new PCP will probably be mostly an introduction. She will want to ask you about some of your medical history (and probably your psych history, but don't let her dwell on it- tell her you have a pdoc who handles that) and go over any recent tests you have had. She will probably repeat some blood work and/or order more if she thinks you need it. Bring your med list and check to see if you need any refills for medications before you go.

I hope that the doctor is nice, and your appointment goes well :hug::hug::hug:

now my balance is worse and my walking is worse in the past few weeks. It happened when i woke up that i noticed it. icalled my ot but he hasn't called back. i'll see when i meet her

today my walking was better and I told her it was fluctuating. I had a blood test.
my heart beat was rapid

Maybe the blood test will provide helpful information.




M

I am afraid it will say my a1c is higher because I have been cheating and my cholesterol might be higher because I have been missing some pills. I really been out of control and my memory hasn't been that good. I wonder if all the anxiety I have is increasing my heart beat.

I read that anxiety can cause increase in pulse rate and I have generalized anxiety disorder, pts from the explosion and burns and anxiety from bipolar II

bobby, I am sorry you suffer with anxiety and ptsd.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Yes, anxiety can increase your heart rate even if you have taken Klonopin, etc.

Also, sometimes the medical assistants take my vitals right after I walk down the hallway into the exam room (which is difficult for me), so my heart rate can be very high, and it has to be rechecked a little later.

I've noticed that when my anxiety is high, I'm disorganized and distracted and my memory gets worse. It may be at least contributing to your problems right now, too :hug::hug::hug:

I hope that your blood tests come back better than expected :hug:

I usually have constant high heart rate-a little over 100.

That is high bobby,

does your doctor know this?
bizi