Bobby

Sounds like tears might help. I know sometimes they do me.

Hope you start to feeling better.

Donna

If you've had feelings about hurting yourself after so long, you should definitely be back on meds, Bobby. I cannot send you enough (((((HUGS))))

Sometimes with BP and meds, you are damned if you do, and damned if you don't take them. The fact that you have been off them for such a short period of time, and are having such a hard time, it is a sign that you need to be on something. Please call your pdoc

I wish things were so much easier for you my friend (((HUGS)))

Thinking of you today

I called up my friend and listened to her for about 20 minutes and heard about her exceptional grandchildren and felt better. I thought a lot about God. When I see the Pdoc I will tell him I definitely need antidepressants. I can't get along without them. I won;t tell him about thinking of self harm to counteract the pain

I am sorry that you are in mental pain/anguish.
Sounds awful
((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I feel so alone and empty. I hope I can read. I went out with cecilia for her birthday and it wasn't pleasant. I dread thanksgiving and the rest of the holidays. I just ordered five pints of ice cream. They were all on sale. I hope I don't eat them all in one day. I told myself I can't shop on ebay. I have spent too much money. My legs hurt but I made it to finegans yesterday. I am a mess.

Good morning bobby,
I wonder if the up and coming holidays is contributing to your anxiety right now?
Sorry you are struggling.
((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I have a hard time with the holidays, too but for different reasons

I'm sorry you are feeling alone and depressed. I hope you can get back on an antidepressant soon

i am reading a delightful book. I ordered more chocolate which acts as an antidepressant for me. I should get it tomorrow and monday. I am not as itchy.
a young woman with her two young sons came for meals on wheels. she was lovely and the sons were adorable. that gave me a lift. I can't wait to get the chocolate. I see the pdoc in another week. I don't know what he is going to do about recommending another antidepressant. I hope he doesn't get mad that i stopped the sleeping pills and the ativan. I am less itchy and jittery. I am taking klonopin again self prescribed. I don't know if it does anything. when the rabbi comes over on tuesday I will ask him to say some prayers for me. tomorrow I think somebody is coming over in the morning from dorot with some goodies. I will try to clean up a little. I have no plans for the holidays.
I don't know what cecilia is doing.