"I have so many blessings. I wish I weren['t so worried and unhappy."

That is the depression, Bobby
I think that it is wonderful that you can recognize your blessings tho. Many people who are so deeply depressed are unable to do that

I'm glad that Pudge finally coughed up that fur ball! Since she is still not eating, I can see why you would want her to be seen by a vet

I think it's wonderful that Robert is going with you to the vet. He will be a lot of help. I just wish he would take the short cab ride with you vs. walking. Maybe you can explain to him that walking there is not safe/realistic for you? I remember he said you were out of shape once.

I'm glad that you went out with Zeynep. Where did you go, and what kind of food did you eat?