I don't think i want therapy. already had a lot of it. I don't think the psychiatrist will just give me drugs. I wish I were on risperdal again

so ask to be put on it again!

I will see what happens with the new psychiatrist and if she will give it to me.
I woke up with a stomach ache again and my legs hurt from the pt,especially my weak leg.I couldn't fall asleep til 2:30 and I had two nightmares. I also started worrying about old age. I woke up depressed and wonder if that is basically be the rest of my life, depressed and anxious.

I don't see any reason why the pdoc wouldn't prescribe the Risperdal.

I'm so sorry that you had so much pain last night, and are still having problems with your stomach

We will always have problems on and off from our BP, but with meds, there is always a chance for improvement. I hope that this new pdoc has the magic touch, and can help improve your symptoms

thank you so much. This morning abby was fooling around with the back of the monitor. then the light went off. I panicked but was finally able to find the switch to turn it on again. I am ambivalent about therapy but use help with dealing with aging. I didn't get nurtured as a child and I don't see how therapy would provide with it. I have already been in therapy before a few times starting with senior year in college when there was no diagnosis of bipolar 2
I woke today with a stomach ache and depression and anxiety.The pt overdid it because my weak leg hurts and is weaker.she forced my leg when I don't think she should have.My back problem began to return. Also Pudge was a bit finicky with eating again and I felt more stressed.I have to call back the insurance company to find out when I will be billed for the initial 186 dollars. The pdoc writes she wants a copay by cash or check and my insurance pays the copay. weird and more stressful. the antidepressant is working a little. I got on the scale and it was two pounds heavier than yesterday.I also had soup yesterday which was probably salty but one veggie burger.
we all love you big time
love
bobby who finally took a bath

as usual I didn't get much sleep last night but did have two nightmares-one about money

Bobby, you need to speak up if you start to feel uncomfortable with anything the PT does or has you do. I'm so sorry she over-did it and you are in pain

The copay situation at the new pdoc's office sounds like a mess. Can you call your supplemental company and ask them to contact the secretary her there? Maybe that would help?

Don't worry about that 2lb difference on the scale. Weight fluctuates day to day, and even during different times of the day

Are you eating ONLY a veggie burger a day, and NOTHING else?

I hope your antidepressant is working. Unfortunately, even if meds are doing their job, some days are harder than others

You don't have to get into your painful past with the pdoc AT ALL if you don't want to, Bobby. Just talk about your current worries, and reveal only what you what you want to.
And you do NOT have to do therapy. I will not do it either.

If you feel like you did better on Risperdal, I would ask to go back on it. There are few, or no other things, that have seemed to work for you

I'm so sorry that you were feeling like you didn't have a reason to live. Sometimes I get that feeling, too
I'm so glad that you were able to remind yourself of your kitties, your friends in real life, and all your friends here, all of who love you to pieces