Kay

I'm so glad you got to see and spend time with the baby and her parents.

I think its good that you guys could talk to them both separately.
Maybe it will be a good start to their life together.

I am so glad your brother is going to take you to your doctor's appointment
next week. THis is such an upbeat thing for you.

I now how much you have been wanting to have a new beginning.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Today I feel just "normal." I've been in the clear for for several days now, too. I know I've already said this, but I really can't believe all it took was adding that extra 100mg of gabapentin to stop that vicious cycle of hypo/mania. Whatever... I'll take it!!! :)

My dispensary is finally carrying a CBD dominant strain of MJ again. It's the best strain/kind for my kind of pain and muscle spasms, so I went down to pick some up. I tried it when I got home, and it's very effective, but energizing (but not activating), so I'll only use it for afternoons and evenings when I'm having severe symptoms.
I wish Alaina had a good dispensary near her now :hug:

We need more water. Corey is home, so why in the hell should I have to beg strangers for help? I'm making him come with me to the grocery store today. I don't need to do food shopping. I just need the water, some toilet paper, and more ice cream. We should be in and out, so he shouldn't b- about it.

I feel like I will somehow become more involved with Heather, Dan, and Bella. And my brother has already said he wants to be more present in my life. Corey won't like all that because he hates my family, and thinks I should separate myself from them. And my sister immediately started sending Chris jealous texts as soon as she heard that he and I went out to lunch and go see the baby. I don't think she would dare pull that s- with me tho because we don't get along, and I don't see her unless I have to lol.

Kay I am so happy for you that you are stable on these meds. The new AP is also working for you together with the gab. Glad you can raise it if you need to.
So glad to hear they have the type of MMJ for your spasms.
You sound so good.
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

Thank you, Bizi :hug:

So....
Sometimes it's hard for me to catch on that I'm too high, and that was the case until yesterday afternoon:
I went to the grocery store by myself (I asked for help with the water) because Corey didn't wake up until after noon, and I was tired of waiting around. Then I made brownies AND chicken soup, and took no nap.
I'm still much better than I was, but I guess I'm not "normal" yet after all.

I increased the gabapentin by 100mg last night. I can't tell yet if it is bringing me down yet or not, but it isn't sedating. If I haven't come back down to earth by Tuesday or Wednesday at this dose (600mg), I will call my pdoc.

We have to do laundry today. UGH. :(

"my brother has already said he wants to be more present in my life. " how wonderful!

It is wonderful! :):):)

I love my brother very much, and we were always very close. He's 8 years younger than me, and since both my parents were alcoholics and left us alone a lot, my sister and I were very involved in raising him. My father also moved to Florida (when I was 21 and he was barely 13) and left him with me for a few years to take care of.

He started going out with a girl about 4yrs ago, and went off the radar. It wasn't just with me. He wasn't really involved with anyone in out family during those years. Now that they've broken up, he's reconnecting with family and old friends.

I think the extra 100mg of gabapentin really helped. I took a 2 hour nap after doing laundry yesterday, and naps have been very hard to come by lately. I feel like I've come down a few notches, but we will see how I do today.

I only caught the 1st half of the Pats game because it was an 8:20pm game, and I went to bed early. It looks like I didn't miss anything because they lost to the Lions 26-10. So far, the Pats stink this year.

Corey tried really hard to wiggle his way out of doing laundry yesterday, but I wasn't having any of that BS. We needed to do a lot of laundry, and I was NOT going alone again. He b'ed and moaned the whole time we were there, but we got it done. I still haven't put it away yet tho.

I have errands to run today, but I'm expecting packages. One is coming by UPS, and I know that they deliver in the early evening, but the other one is coming by Amazon US delivery... whatever that is, so I have no idea when to expect them. So, I don't know if I should venture out today or not... ? So frustrating.

I have to take mag. citrate tonight. But I should take it again before I see the surgeon on Friday. Not happy about that.

you sound good kay. :)
glad that you are coming down and were able to take a nap.
good for you for standing your ground with the laundry. Corey is something else....grr.
I hope that you continue to come down.
many hugs to you today.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

good for standing up to Corey!

I am also glad you stood up to Corey. You really need to get more
assertive. I think you might just start telling him that the choice
is one of three things.

1. He and you both go.
2. He go by himself.
3. Or he pay someone to come get the laundry and do it.

I have a feeling if he is given these choices he will chose #1. And I'd
tell him he has no choice and can't complain. Its one of these period.

I realize you can't but you are doing the next best thing.

Donna :hug::grouphug: