i woke up feeling so very alone and terrified. I think the extra dose affected me
and brought me way done. In reality I am so alone. Thank God I have you and my kitty cats. The pastor was very nice and I am looking forward to his next visit. He is the first person I have met who knows the terror of being in limbo and terrified of life and death.
love
bobby
i am too tired to feel angry

I feel much better. I took the other pill when I woke up before. . After 6 tries on the digital scale( I have trouble with balance) the three pounds disappeared. My diet officially starts today.
Now I have to decide what clothes to give to the good will.
love
bobby
(now instead of buying them I am throwing them out)

i just had the porter bring down six tall garbage bags of clothes and shoes. I don't think I am through but need a break Some weren't even unopened!
Marci called last night and left a message. I was asleep. wonder how she takes the news of only working one day a week for me. wonder if I should tell her when she calls or wait til her coordinator tells her or I see her face to face.
for the diet I had black coffee with mct oil. Maybe I don't need cream after all.

6 tall bags of clothes for the good will is a lot of clothes!!!!!! and work. I am sure you feel good about this.When does the good will come to get them?
Happy that Sam will be in your life.
I hope you have a good day.
never tried the mct oil that you used...how was it in your coffee? I have heard of putting butter in your coffee too.
love bizi

I just added another 6 bags and could have given more but I was too tired. I gave the porter 10 dollars. I like him so much. Practically every worker in this building is so kind. This morning they made one of the rooms into a donation center. Victor said they already had so much!
I don't like black coffee but putting this oil into it really made it okay. I also read that you can add ghee or butter along with the oil and make it really special.. I just bought Zulay High Powered Milk Frother Handheld Foam Maker for Lattes - Whisk Drink Mixer for Bulletproof Coffee, Mini Foamer for Cappuccino, Frappe, Matcha, Hot Chocolate by Milk Boss - Black
Love
bobby

I have been using jasmine essential oil a lot.
Top 12 uses for Jasmine Essential Oil
Top 12 uses for Jasmine Essential Oil
Medically Reviewed by Dr. BENGEBARA Omar
MD, ER Doctor & Surgery Resident – Reviewed & Approved on November 05, 2018
–Written by Marc Seward
WHAT IS JASMINE ESSENTIAL OIL?
Just the sweet aromatic fragrance of Jasmine essential oil can do a lot to lift our spirits; some people claim that it instills feelings of poetry and romance. The essential oil is extracted from several jasmine species.

Some species found include: Poet’s Jasmine or Jasmine grandiflorum, Spanish Jasmine and Arabian Jasmine (Jasminum Sambac). Jasminum Officinale or common jasmine is the species most commonly used in essential oils.

The oil is extracted from the plant’s white flowers which blossom during the night. Jasmine is a valued flower and in Pakistan it has been named the National flower while the Hindus in India regard jasmine as a holy flower. Jasmine essential oil is widely used for its fragrance in the perfume and cosmetic industries where it lends its scent to shampoos and soap.

In many parts of Asia, Jasmine is used as a floral garment and also hung in the car to make it smell fresh. Jasmine is certainly very well known for its scent but it also has a number of therapeutic uses. Traditionally jasmine has been used in certain Asian cultures to help with childbirth and labor problems and also to help with libido. Nowadays it is used for a number of therapeutic purposes which range from skin treatment to depression.


jasmine essential oil
JASMINE ESSENTIAL OIL—ABSOLUTE OR ENFLEURAGE
Like most flower-based essential oils—Jasmine is technically not an essential oil. It is not made via pressing or distillation. Jasmine essential oil is typically Jasmine absolute or enfleurage.

Jasmine absolute is made by soaking the flowers in an alcohol solvent.

Jasmine enfleurage is made by soaking the flowers in odorless plant or animal fats (oil). Alcohol is added to pull the essence from the fat. Then the fat is separated and the alcohol allowed to evaporate—leaving behind the absolute.

The details typically only matter to the company making the oil—the end product of either method can both be of a high quality. Be sure you know how the oil is made and what is the actual real amount of active ingredient vs. alcohol or carrier oils. If they don’t mention the extraction method and the plant species specifically it is a potential red flag.

JASMINE ESSENTIAL OIL COMPOSITION
A 2016 analysis of Jasminum grandiflorum found the presence mostly of the following (8):

Secoiridoids
Terpenoids
Flavonoids
Tannins
JASMINE ESSENTIAL OIL PROPERTIES
The therapeutic abilities of Jasmine essential oil owe much to its medicinal properties which include the following:

Antidepressant
Antiseptic
Antispasmodic
Cicatrisant
Expectorant
Emmenagogue
Sedative
Uterine
Antibacterial
JASMINE ESSENTIAL OIL BENEFITS
Jasmine essential oil is especially well known for its powerful sedative properties which can help ease many of the issues related to the mind but aside from its mental health benefits, it can be used to help with a variety of other physical complaints.


Infographic for the uses for Jasmine Essential Oil
1. FOR ANXIETY AND STRESS
If you are feeling sad or blue, then jasmine essential oil might be just the essential oil to lift your spirits. Because of its wonderful aroma, jasmine essential oil is known to have an uplifting effect on the mind. It is used by people in times of sadness or grief and is even said to be able to fight depression by promoting the release of certain hormones such as serotonin.

Not only does it help to raise the spirits but it can often help combat the effects of anxiety and stress. Inhaling jasmine essential oil molecules transmits messages to the limbic system of the brain which is known to known to control emotions and influence the body’s nervous system.

READ 8 Amazing Mongongo Oil Benefits
Researchers in Germany have recently discovered that the scent of jasmine had a very powerful effect on the nerve cells owing to a chemical called GABA. Hundreds of scents were tested for their GABA effect in humans and mice and they found that jasmine increased this effect by over five times and acted equally as strongly as sleeping pills, sedatives and anti-anxiety pills.

The good news is that jasmine does not come with the nasty side effect risks so common with commercial medications. (1) Professor Hans Hatt suggested that the results showed that “Applications in sedation, anxiety, excitement and aggression relieving treatment and sleep induction therapy are all imaginable.”

2. SEDATIVE EFFECTS
As I mentioned above, jasmine has very powerful sedative effects in line with those offered by commercially produced pharmaceuticals. Anybody that has ever taken sleeping pills or anti-anxiety medications like Xanax will be fully aware of the very high risk of addiction and adverse side effects like dizziness, muscle weakness and depression.

This is great news for the millions of people who suffer from anxiety symptoms and whose lives are plagued by insomnia. If you cannot sleep, try diffusing jasmine essential oil in your bedroom at night and simply inhale it from your cupped palms whenever you are feeling anxious.

I am glad you are happy with your oils.
(((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

it turns out that ceciia needs a hip replacement in a couple of weeks. If I understood her right, even though she has osteoperosis(sp) her former surgeon who killed himself two years ago put in screws rather than doing a hip replacement. I tried to be very supportive and optimistic. I hadn't heard from her in over a week. I guess I am not taking her out for her birthday. I had asked her twice
She thought I should not have been angry at Marci for not doing some hand wash. I got angry at her. I told her that today I think the medication might be beginning to work. Then she said why were you angry.
that got me angry. I also got angry because years ago she lost a lot of weight on the diet I am trying and said it was easy yet she just told me about today and never suggested to me. This was after I told her I was trying it.
love
bobby

I am sorry that cecilia needs a hip replacement. hubby broke his hip and they just put in 4 screws....they told him it would only last so long that he will eventually need a total hip replacement. Not looking forward to that.
That is 12 bags of clothes....wow!
good for you.
hope you sleep better tonight.
love bizi

why didn't he have just a hip replacement or do they not last that long? Cecilia goes away a lot of weekends for agility trials and maybe goes over an hour or two each way to get lessons for her dogs twice a week.. I don't know how long she will be out of commission but that is her life.
she is also bone thin. It looks as if her legs could snap at any moment. she does it on purpose.
I have been listening to music all night. I lost a pound. Just tried to weigh myself again but couldn't maintain my balance. rats
love
bobby debating whether or not to have a cup of coffee. listening mostly to aaron neville. i adore him and just remembered him.


20 years
The good news is that studies show that common types of hip replacements can last more than 20 years. While there are hundreds of studies, they all vary in the type of implant used and the type of patient who had their hip replaced.
How Long Do Hip Replacements Last?

Diet to help osteoporosis Prevent Osteoporosis Through Your Diet - Diet and Nutrition Center - EverydayHealth.com
Preventing Osteoporosis Through Diet: Other Nutrients for Strong Bones. Magnesium, zinc, copper, iron, fluoride, and vitamins A and C are also required to prevent bone loss. Eating a well-balanced diet that includes plenty of fruits and vegetables, whole grains, meats, beans, nuts, and seeds helps ensure that you’re getting what you need.
cecilia hasn't done that.
To avoid osteoporosis and the other conditions we've discussed in this article, people who fall below the body mass index of normal weight (18.5) should speak to a medical professional about gaining weight safely.