i forgot I always have trouble sleeping and am constantly exhausted. i think bipolar gets worse as you get old.

Bipolar has been proven to get worse with age, its not a matter of belief its a matter of medical study - all mental illness gets worse with age as our brains age too and mental illness gets worse. Regardless of meds you cannot control BP completely, the meds act as control factors but sometimes and often over time your body adapts and meds need to be tailored.

Bobby

I realized it wasn't hoarding, I was meaning it was a lot like that. And was
wondering if he needed proof. So I trying to figure that part out. I'm glad
he doesn't need it.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i slept ,bore last night, I am going to try so hard to stop buying tunics and shoes. I will just try to r ead more. I hope I am really scared about money. I am also scared about the heart monitor results tomorrow.

the heart monitor. Is it a smallish device stsuck to your chest? I saw one the other day so much better that the ones you wore like a harness/vest. It was awful.
Hope you do some reading today bobby.
love you
bizi

three things stuck on my chest attached to a thingie that had strap and hung from my neck. one of the things came off in the middle of the night. i don't know how long it was off. i called the number and the guy told me where to place it.
i am reading
;love you
bobby

Glad you are reading.

I hope your test results come back good.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

the new medication i am taking may affect the heart ugh.
fondly
bobby

I am feeling so lonely and afraid. There was a party in the building this evening and Marci went with me. Marci finally helped serve me. It was too hard to do it myself. I got scared when I was leaving. I thought I was going to fall down.. I am really handicapped.
I rode the recumbent bike for four minutes. I hope to force myself to do it a couple of more times today. That might help.
bought some nails and a hammer. don't know where my hammer is. spending spending. any excuse

I am totally out of control. I finally heard from my doctor's assistant at five and he said my heart was fine. My doctor had taken me off of one of my blood pressure medicines so now my blood pressure is high again. fanapt now seems to make everything worse. I am so depressed and anxious. I have no impulse control. Instead of calling the handyman to put a couple of nails in my wall, since I couldn't find my hammer I bought a new one and then bought nails to do it myself .
I don't know what the doctor will give me. I am so manic..

Hi Bobby,
I am glad that they had a holiday party at your building. was it well attended? How was the food? Am glad that Marci helped you with some food.
Have you been able to ride your bike at all?
Hugs to you today. Hope you get some more sleep.
love
bizi