Bobby

I'm so sorry to hear about Cecelia. I hope she starts getting better soon

Donna

glad you liked the joke. so right about people.
bobby.

severely depressed with bad thoughts. so stressed and y pudge didn't move all day and didnt see her eat. finally brought her to the bed and she slept with me. she still hasn't eaten.. i am so scared and feel so hopeless

Remember judge does this sometimes. Also guessing she picks up on your moods too. So maybe if you are down so is she. Do you have treats for her try that

pudge isn't interested in treats. she is on the bed again. I think she ate a little.
fondly
bobby

i am getting more depressed. I won't find out about the antidepressant until tomorrow afternoon. I am really scared about the price.
I really acted out this morning. One of my friends goes on and on about her adult children and how they make her worry so much. When I mention a friend she cuts me off. Early this morning I wrote her about my friends and how I worry about them the way she worries about her children, grandchildren and a great grand child. I mentioned Suri again and mentioned the bad stomachs I have since she died and said I will never get over her loss..
I haven't obviously heard from her. She also keeps on repeating herself over and over again.
Pudge ate a lot today. that was a huge relief. I ate some oatmeal and that helped my stomach which still hurts. My caseworker called and she said she will call every week to see how I am doing. I sounded so awful. She had another woman call me and said she was going to find a friendly visitor to support on the phone once a week.
my burn still hurts and i am having a lot of trouble reading.

she isn't mad at me. I just spoke with her for a while. she said one of her daughters tried to commit suicide three times.

why do you say you acted out? doesnt sound that way to me.

hugs

I was so very angry that I sent her the email and talked about my friends and said things like two of their husbands dropped dead in front of them and one had had breast cancer etc. She brushes off my problems. Last night I was in agony. My stomach ached all night. I just had some lemon juice and water and threw out all my oatmeal. I guess I can't eat that either.
When she told me that her daughter had tried to kill herself three times I realized she is living emotional blackmail and I felt so bad for her. Something is wrong with her son mentally and he already has two heart stents. Her other daughter is just selfish. They grew up very very rich. and their father didn't write a good will so they are fighting over money too. I guess she really needs me for support. I gave her a tip about ordering from freshdirect and looked up a couple of urls on free health counseling. I don't if either was what was mentioned on tv.
I guess she primarily uses me for support. Her son's psychiatrist charges him 450 dollars.
I could take it better if I always didn't have a stomach ache all the time. I am going to look up what you can eat when you have gastritis. Right now I don't want to be sedated and have my stomach checked out.

I also can't stop watching msnbc which is so upsetting. Today hopefully I find out if I can afford my antidepressant. It is so awful to be all alone. I guess it is just ibs-c.. They even recommended oatmeal that killed me all night.