I try but lately my depression has been so bad. right now it isn't.. I hate being bipolar!
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bobby

still not depressed yet.
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bobby

I'm so sorry Bobby I sure wish I had an idea how to help you.

It sounds like you need to talk to your doctor.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

the first time in ages I wasn't depressed. I already talked him before and he said he didn't want to raise any of my medications. Aplenzin works the best.
Fondly
bobby

Yes bipolar has its ups and downs, wish things were more stable for you.
(((((HUGS))))))
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mine are so much more downs than ups-true of bipolar 11
I am not depressed. It is going to be a bad stock day for me. I have been eating a lot of poached eggs for meals and have lost 5 pounds in a short while.
I don't know how long I will be free of the depression. It is so chemical and doesn't seem to have anything to do with my situation. I have so many issues. can't yet get scheduled for a vaccination. I keep on thinking what a horrible death it would be.
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bobby
i have been buying so many clothes. totally out of control.

three cheers for not being depressed!!!!!!!!!
bizi:yahoo:

Bobby

I'm sorry you can't get scheduled yet. I'm hoping soon you can get scheduled.
I'm having to think this has to do with part of when you get depressed.

Donna :grouphug:

i just got scheduled for saturday. my depression is chemical
fondly
bobby

Are you going to ask someone to go with you?
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Stella said she would go with me. I read that the place is step free. relief. She told me that a lot of people die from the vaccine so I sent her an email saying that a lot of older people from preexisitng conditions and not from the vaccination. I also told her I would rather die from the vaccine than the illness.
I started with the depression then it stopped. I had a stomach ache all night.
whenI have just eggs I don't.
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bobby

Please see if Robert can go with you. If not see if you
can get your agency that works with you to have someone
go with you and bring you back home.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

Very good response Bobby. And I think she is just trying to scare you.

I haven't heard that at all. I've heard the opposite that not many are
having even a reaction to the vaccine. The only reason I'm even having
Derrick and his provider make sure its safe for him from his neurologist
which I believe it is. IS his seizures. So I just want him to agree he should
get it. I already know he wants too when he is able too.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

stella who I have known for almost 50 years will go. I asked the agency but they have no workers on Saturday. I wrote robert for help and then wrote him that stella would go. stella listens to all sorts of cr@p and that is why I haven't spoken to her that much this past year. We love eachother.
fondly
bobby

I am sorry stella said that to you. Glad that you are going to get the vaccination.
love bizi

I am so scared that I will have trouble getting to where I am supposed to go because my walking is so bad. I just decided if it is too much I will crawl.

They may have a wheel chair that you could borrow?
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bizi

they didn't but i got the shot and rested a lot.
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bobby

Glad you got it done Bobby.

Do me a favor and get your self a wheelchair so you have it just in
case you need to go somewhere.

Or ask if your care group has one you can borrow when your going.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

i think it is too complicated. i can use the walker for a short distance. I hardly go out.
fondly
bobby

i just changed the next dose to two blocks away. i haven't decided if i need to take a cab. i didn't know they were giving them there.

oh that is great bobby! my arm was sore for a couple of days then went away.
love bizi

my arm is fine.
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bobby

I am not depressed. yesterday I had a stomach ache all day. It was awful.. My pharmacy called to see if I wanted a vaccine. I told him I already had one dose and the second dose would be at his pharmacy.
It is weird but I don't feel like talking to anybody. I want to read and fill out the vaccine form but I just seem to be watching the news. I gained a pound.
This morning I have been thanking God a lot. The bipolar is really drawing me closer to him.
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bobby

Great report from you this morning.glad that you are once again turning to God for support.
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bizi

I am still experiencing the side effects of the vaccine. harder to walk, very fatigued and running nose. the depression is back along with the negative thoughts.
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bobby

I am sorry the depression is back and sorry to hear you are having dark thoughts too.(((((HUGS))))):hug:
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bizi

i am really in a mixed mood. i am now not depressed. what a wild ride. i am going to try to stay away from ebay. i have so many books to read now. i have so many clothes.
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bobby

what ever happened to taking risperdol?
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my doctor took me off of it. I forgot why. back to being depressed.
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bobby

((((((((HUGS)))))
bizi

depressed. my stocks are way down. just took a bath. didn't watch tv or go to ebay yesterday. plan to do the same today. reading an enjoyable book.also read to die by seneca. not depressing but inspiring.
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bobby

sorry your stocks are down.
They will go back up again.
I am so happy to hear that you are reading again!!!!!!
love bizi

thanks. i spent an hour on the phone this morning talkin to my oldest friend linda. we have been talking so much these days. still no tv or ebay. started the day with a bath.
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bobby

good self care bobby, glad that you have linda in your life!
love bizi

thank you so much.
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bobby

keep it up bobby, I think you are wonderful.
(((((((HUGS)))))
love you

bizi

finished the book and started aother one. also trying to get more sleep.
won't watch tv because all i watch is the news and no ebay.
just had pretzels yesterday.
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bobby

Perhaps you could eat a few other things instead of just pretzels, weren't you starving?
((((HUGS))))
love bizi

i wasn't starving. yesterday i finished the pretzels, had blueberries and butterscotch sugar free instant pudding.
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bobby