Hey Bobby! <3

Yeah! I've been taking Gabapentin for anxiety and sleep aid and it really helps! Your symptoms sound a bit more like mine with depression being more of a concern and the darn weight gain being an issue (it's not because of how i look, but how i feel. And well, i guess it really sucks when people comment about it, especially those who are my loved ones. Like they feel concern for my physical health, but do they even consider my mental health?! No, so that upsets me more. Sorry. Just a little worked up thinking how a big part of why i got off the med was from others bugging me so much. But i mean, it wasnt really working either.)

I feel i am rambling. Basically just wanted to send you a message because we dont talk that much anymore. Sending my best! <3

i am sorry ..I have really been having an awful day. gabapentin did nothing for me. I take 2 mg of clonapzam for anxiety.

bobby, I am sorry that you struggle...
((((HUGS))))
bizi

thanks so much. I have decided to take a new approach. I am not watching the news. I am hardly buying anything from ebay. I am going to try to get myself to walk in the hall more. I am going to try not to get upset that my stocks are down
all I will do is read novels and pet the kitties. reading has always been my grand escape. I have been reading since 3:30 this morning. yesterday a friend called and started complaining again about her impossible spoiled adult children. I let her have it and told her I had big problems and walking and balance are so hard. I told her that yesterday I fell backwards but thank God I didn't kill Aby who was sleeping on soft thingie that broke my fall. I forced her to listen and then I listened to her and I told her I loved her a couple of times and I want her to take better care of herself. she looks as if she is in her early sixties but she is in her eighties. I will listen to more music.
I will get more books for my kindles since I can change the fonts.
love
bobby

You sound great!!!!!congratulations on not watching the news!!!!!!
and reading again and yes do some more walking.I am sorry that you fell against something soft.
take care of yourself.
love

bizi

I just spoke with my pdoc and he isn't changing anything. I did tell my plans but my irritability and worrying is awful. he said to try to push myself and walk and that would help.
love
bobby

woke up really depressed. I listened to music all night, I am going to read now.
Love
bobby

did you get any sleep?
bizi

I did and part of it was very deep sleep . took a nap this afternoon. i am exhausted. I took the new medication-vyalar(sP) and am going to take it every other day. My doctor said it shouldn't have made me gain weight but I read a warning to say to watch it. How are you, donna and geeluv doing?
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bobby

We went to a gumbo party for a guest friend of a friend.
I did not drink too much which is good.
I finished 27 bills and got caught up there.
I recently got some referrals of 7-8 new clients so tomorrow I will call the family members and get information on them. It is overwhelming to get that many all at once. they were faxed to me on thursday evening.
I saw one client today, Donna..is her name.I feel sorry for her. She is a high risk client and I should not be doing her.I have been seeing her for a long time. I let her talk, after my visit with her I told her that I thought she was doing good, before I left. This made her smile.
We will go and have brunch at our usual diner.BELT is my favorite breakfast sandwich.bacon egg lettuce and tomato on rye bread with mayo on both sides of the bread not toasted. and a side of brocolli. a lot of the servers know my order, lol.
Jeff is snoring I had better finish getting ready to sleep.
wash face apply moisturizer , brush my teeth, I already took my meds.
good night all and hugs to those that need them.
bizi