even though very nice things have been happening to me i can't shake this bipolar depression.
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bobby

i had another wretched day. i did enjoy watching pudge eat when i refilled her container. i started a book i was enjoying but too depressed to continue. i am thrilled that i haven't been needing the ac and spending money.. started a diet mostly beef and gefilte fish.it might work.
i usually listen to soft rock every night. i fought with an a@@hole friend who knows it all and of course won't have the vaccine and sent me a couple of letters saying the most disgusting things about fauci. she can be kind and that is why i haven't dropped her.
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bobby

sorry that you had a confrontation, hate that!
hopefully you will have a better day tomorrow.

you can eat avocados if you like them. they are high in the good kind of fat and taste delicious! Have you thought about trying the keto diet?
if all you eat is beef and fish won't you get tired of that really quickly?

Do you eat bacon? or pork chops? or eggs? bacon and eggs can be cooked in a microwave.
you can steam brocolli in the microwave and it is so good for you, raw you can dip it into ranch dressing. yum! the ranch dressing has 0 carbs if that is what you are shooting for. In the keto diet you get to have 20 carbs mostly from veggies. you get to eat meat, fats, eggs and some veggies.It is easy if you like the same foods. There are recipes on the web.
any way,
lots of love
bizi

mine is a temporary diet and so far it really seems to be working fast. i have done this one but without the fish and lost 20 pounds fast. my friend and i fought about the keto diet.
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bobby

my new pastoral intern called me this morning. it was great.
this is the first prayer you say when you wake up
Morning Prayer

I give thanks unto You, Adonai, that, in mercy, You have restored my soul within me. Endless is Your compassion; great is Your faithfulness. ... May I renew my soul with faith in You, Source of all Healing. Blessed are You, Adonai our God, Ruler of the Universe, Who renews daily the work of creation.
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bobby

I have never heard of the god called adonia. Is that a Hebrew name for god?
just curious,
love bizi

i think so. i thought it was a lovely prayer.
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bobby

as usual i woke up very depressed. this time however it went away fast. my leg and foot are better. yesterday just lying down hurt. i keep on telling myself that it should be better in a couple months and then maybe i will go outside. my new allergies are bad. i still think they were caused by the vaccine. my therapist kept on saying that i should consult my md about the meat diet. she got me so angry. i think losing weight, especially since i have diabetes is less risky. it was an annoying session and i think she doesn't know how the bipolar mind works. she really stressed me. today i talk to my other therapist and ask him if he has any suggestions about dealing with stress.
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bobby

my leg and foot is definitely better. i had trouble with the pharmacy. they were going to charge me over 60 dollars extra and finally after hounding them i paid 20 dollars. then they delivered the medication without saying to refrigerate it. i called downstairs and asked if it was refrigerated and was told there were no instructions for it. i called the pharmacy and went ballistic. they said it should be all right. i have to inject it.
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bobby

oh how frustrating!!!!
really feel for you.
love bizi