they just finally picked up my screen. they were supposed to do it on thursday.
read a book by tolstoy a confession. he was suicidal for years and he did so much searching. finally saw how the peasants were fine even though they were poor. they had faith. his search had ended and he no longer felt despair
or was suicidal.

I hate waiting!


nice book.
love bizi

they finally picked it up.
love
bobby

i have had the worse stomach ache all night. besides my usual stomach ache i had a lot of sugar free cough drops. no more sugar free. i had a major fight with stella who really triggered me. that didn't help. she is so arrogant and so stupid. she says her immune system is perfect and she won't get vaccinated.
she even sent me an article condemning fauci. she really added to my stomach ache.

Bobby

Don't worry about what she has to say about the vaccination. I'd worry
more about if and when she catches the virus. And yes, I can understand
why she added to your stomachache. I personally worry about those
that are so just sure that the virus will just not hit them.

Donna :grouphug::hug:

I wonder if the insurance companies will pay if people don't get the vaccination, let them eat cake!

i woke up again this morning wishing i were dead but then it passed. then i wished i would live.i am so irritable. i am still deeply disturbed by my fight with stella. yesterday i got annoyed with marci whom i keep on telling each time to get the vaccine. she wears a mask inside and a double mask outside. last week i gave her a half chicken cooked and instead saying thank you she said it better be good. then i said i was saving her money. then she said she has a lot of food so i wasn't saving her money. this week i asked about the chicken and she said it was all right. this week i gave her more chicken this week and again she said it better be good.
i got so furious and said you can always throw it out. it is good kosher chicken. being vengeful i decided i won't give her anymore because she really upset me with her attitude. do you blame me or is it my bipolar?
she also asked for socks and then she said later she would give 2.50. i said no just wash them. i have given her so many things.
on the good news i signed up for a course on psalms at dorot. they are good for those who suffer. surprise surprise pudge is back on the bed and aby was head bumping me last night.
i ate two pints of ice cream and a pie yesterday. i have to stop binging.
i bought a sun lamp to help with depression. i finally didn't have a stomach ache last night. today i had some oat bran.
i am irritated by the stock market. i have been practically all out of it and i am so sure it will keep on going up but i can't afford to lose money. i am reading foreign affairs and enjoying it. i stopped buying clothes from ebay
love
bobby

I am glad that your stomach settled.You ate a whole pie, 9inch? that we upset my stomach!
sorry about your issues with stella. and that ceclia is so ungrateful!
Glad that you will have the comfort of the class.
gotta run. love bizi

i think it was 26 ounces. and two pints of hagaan daz. just got off the phone with my social worker who kept on repeating that i had to show compassion and caring for needs and put the above the other person. i shouldn't seek revenge but don't do things that wind up hurting myself.
love
bobby no more or ice cream

Bobby

I'd definitely stop giving Marci the chicken. If she can't appreciate it more
than saying it better be good. I'd just say if she ask why no more, well
it wasn't good. Sorry. (sarcastly)

I think you are doing ok, don't worry about Stella, she is a pita. Not sure
why I liked that word for her just did.

Donna