you must have felt secure and at ease with her/him to tell secrets to.
How did that make you feel after ward? what was the response?
bizi

she is only 22 and a half. she is a very pretty chinese american who has such a gentle voice. she promised that she wouldn't repeat what i told her to her supervisor. I can't wait to talk with her next week. she shows so much compassion and i feel she so strongly wants to help me and understand me.. She knows how much I suffer and is not afraid to work with me. She takes her time in responding to me.. there is a freshness about her. at first i couldn't believe i told her some secrets i haven't told anybody. i guess i just knew she wouldn't say anything that would hurt me. i have always been way too sensitive. There are more secrets too that i will probably share with her. I have had such a crazy life. I have been such a jerk.
an old friend called last night but i was feeling so lousy and trying to sleep really early that i didn't answer the phone. Flora didn't sound good on the voice mail. I will call her in a couple of hours. She assumed I was out and having fun. what a joke. She was one of my very best friends in my twenties and early thirties. then she moved and married.
love,
bobby

Bobby

I remember when you stressed about asking for a new female therapist.
I'm so glad you did, and you got one that you really needed. See asking
and receiving someone that was exactly what you needed was great.

I'm also so glad you are talking to your friends.

Donna

Is the 22 year old asian gal your new therapist?
bizi

yes can you believe it. i also have a middle aged female therapist.

i am worried. i called a dear friend yesterday after i sent her an email. i don't know any of her friend's or her sister's name. i hope she is okay.
just went on a spending spree. will try to call joyce at nine. i looked at obituaries and she wasn't there. i really care for her.

just spent over 1/2 hour talking to joyce. she is fine. her email wasn't working and yesterday with help of her nephew she took three of her babies to the vet. jerry her main coon now weighs 26 pounds. he gained so much weight from a special food and has to lose a lot of weight.. she has 9 cats and a young doggie whose skin condition is better.
she knows i catastrophize and she really apologized.

Bobby

Glad you got to talk to her. I'm also glad it sounds like other
than the kitty that needs to lose weight her others are good.

I hope you are too now.

Donna

i really got a stomach ache and nausea. i think i am just going to have tea with sugar and no food. i don't know what to do. you can't believe how many cans of no salt or low sodium soup i have. i haven't done my exercises today. i might try them after the tea.
love
bobby
i am so glad i threw out all that bread and food.

i got so outraged when heard that supreme chief thomas's wife is a lobbyist who makes a fortune with so much conflict of interest. that made me want to vomit.
Is Ginni Thomas a Threat to the Supreme Court? | The New Yorker

last night i had two awful nightmares. One was I had covid and the other somebody emptied my brokerage account where i have most of my money.
I just checked that and thought since i hardly go there my password and login wouldn't work. they did and my account although lower was fine.
I am such a wreck and feel so lousy. last night i kept on feeling how mentally ill i am. my two meds hardly work and lately i have been feeling very scared.
pudge slept with me all night. Yesterday. i have never been called a treasure. but Joyce called me a treasure. She flooded me with more compliments. when had her store and sold beautiful kitties that were expensive if she didn't like the person she wouldn't sell them one.
I can't wait to speak to my therapists. i did get more sleep. i have to read up on old people who alone without family and protection.
maybe a lot of the things i feel are normal for my situation. I am not going to listen to the news today. i can't watch dumb tv shows so hopefully i can just sleep and read.