[mymorgy]

do you think you should have it checked out? my healing is going to take forever-very depressing.
love
bobby

[mymorgy]

my leg is hurting less. just used the sponges to wash my hair and clean my body. i am doing it every other day. i feel clean. It is awful feeling like a pig. i shocked marci when she saw me cleaning the soles of my feet. She had said she was going to clean them.
i got so angry with walker i am using it much less. my balance is better and i just hold on to things. i am still listening to too much news but a lot it is inspiring. there are so many kind and brave people out there. i think i am through spending clothes now.. now if only i could diet. i am just buying more fruit.
i am beginning to think that i might start drinking sherry, bristol cream or scotch. it might help my depression and maybe help me sleep more. i have been giving it a lot of thought and i really hate suffering. so many bipolar people are alcoholics. one was my father. he suffered so much from depression. as an adult i asked him why he drank and he simply said it made him feel good..i think liquor would calm down my anxiety and curb my eating.

[bizi]

In the long run alcohol is a depressant.
I am sorry that you are suffering.
do you ever eat salads they made these chopped salads in a bag. I like the poppy seed one has chopped cabbage and brussel sprouts and rachio greens with pumpkin seeds and cranberry all separated out if you don't like. I love the poppy seed dressing.its is sweet. It says it has 3 servings. jeff and I can split a bag.
I think it will keep in your refrigerator a day so you can have some more the next day. I think you would like it.
love you
bizi

[mymorgy]

i buy bags of salad i can't win.i wonder if you wind up suffering from depression with your drinking.liquor it helped my father and he had a low tolerance so he got drunk fast and didn't drink much. he didn't look like a drunk.
i just order a big bottle of scotch and two bottles of bristol cream. i think it is worth a try and i will be 78 in may. i don't think i will live enough to cause damage. i won't be a heavy drinker.
love,
bobby

We found that total low-to-moderate alcohol drinking (5 to 15 g/day) was associated with lower risk of depression. A stronger inverse association was found for low-to-moderate wine-drinkers (two to seven glasses/week).Aug 30, 2013


We found that total low-to-moderate alcohol drinking (5 to 15 g/day) was associated with lower risk of depression. A stronger inverse association was found for low-to-moderate wine-drinkers (two to seven glasses/week).Aug 30, 2013


Is alcohol in moderation good for anxiety?
At first, drinking can reduce fears and take your mind off of your troubles. It can help you feel less shy, give you a boost in mood, and make you feel generally relaxed. In fact, alcohol's effects can be similar to those of antianxiety medications.

Older adults with GAD appear to use alcohol at an increased rate, but mild-to-moderate drinkers do not appear to experience sleep difficulties. In fact, use of a modest amount of alcohol may be beneficial for minimizing the association between anxiety/worry and insomnia among older adults with GAD.

Nevertheless, moderate alcohol consumption has been associated with a reduction of some health risks; for instance, compared to non- drinkers, moderate alcohol drinkers display a reduced risk of coronary artery disease11, ischemic stroke11, heart failure11, and type 2 diabetes12.

[mymorgy]

i just donated to directrelief. my senator sent me great sites to donate to.
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i overdid yesterday with exercising my leg. it hurts so much and it hurts when i am just lying done. my stomach is really bothering me.
i emailed the social worker intern. what a disaster. I wrote that i wanted no more sessions. with her.

[bizi]

I am sorry it did not work out with the social worker but I am glad that you asserted yourself.
love bizi

[mymorgy]

thanks. she wrote if she could call me and i wrote i owe it to her. we talked for a long time and i told her she should listen to her gut and not her supervisor who gave her awful advice. i told her she should also always keep in mind the big picture and not minutia.
unlike you i can't take pain. I don't know long my leg will keep hurting. With my ibs my stomach hurts a lot so i am a bit afraid of pain killers.
i haven't tried any of the liquor yet. it is not appealing when you are nauseated. i have been taking Pepto-Bismol.
been watching news all the time.
love,
bobby

[mymorgy]

just emailed linda to call when she wants. she is my oldest friend and so self absorbed or self centered. last time she called i told her i was in terrible pain after my fall. she at first was so sympathetic and then it turned into her talking about how her mother dressed her when she was a little girl and named the colors she would use and the colors she didn't use.
linda will never change. she is 78

[bizi]

I used to drink drambui, it is a sipping after dinner drink.
I think it was like scotch high alcohol % with a bit of sweetness.
I loooovvveeeddd it.
I have been alcohol free AF, 11 days this time.
I really like to drink but know it is bad for me.


I am a binge drinker. I would black out and not
remember leaving a function.
I have thrown up at peoples houses.
It is just easier to abstain. having these
partakes and 0.0.0 beers has made all of the

difference in the world. I hope they do not discontinue them.
The partakes have 10 calories and less than .5%.

the 0.0.0 have 4 calories and zero % of alcohol

I drink both of them. If I have 6 partakes = 2.4%

alcohol which is less than half a Budweiser beer

which has 5 %. A Miller light has 3.2%. I think it may have less.
any way.
Scotch has 0 carbs so you can drink it following

a low carb diet. can't mix it with anything.

eggs,tuna fish with mayo canned meats

no rice, no sweets/sugars, no flour, no potatoes.

That is a simple guild line.

I hope the scotch helps your anxiety.
love you
bizi

[mymorgy]

i am a binge eater when i get really anxious and crave sweets and then most of the time i get nauseated and throw up. since i got ibs i get nauseated a lot and have awful stomach aches. i guess i am afraid of food now. today maybe i will just have hard boiled eggs and soup and coffee. i can't give up coffee.
i haven't tried the scotch or bristol cream yet. i have just been too nauseated. part of it is also due to chronic constipation.
I am afraid my leg and ankle won't feel better for a few months. I overdid using my leg a couple of days ago so it hurts more now. this morning i will do the exercises. do you know what pain killer is safe for an awful stomach? Do you think necklace would help my leg. I finally bought some depends. because of my leg sometimes i can't get out of my bed in time. what a mess. i need marci to change the sheet etc.
now for the good news. I really think my allergic reaction to the vaccine stopped. my eyes and skin no longer itch and just occasionally my nose runs.
I was petting pudge this morning for a while and all was well..
So far I stopped spending. Thank God. that is such a relief. i still go to ebay but don't buy anything. Last month my credit card was low. My taxes are finished. I am beginning to be able to start concentrating and beginning to read again. I have been consistently listening to music.
then i read yesterday that dejoy won't destroy the postal service. big relief.
i do watch too much news. now mnsbc has some sky news that is great .It
is weird. Even though I think the worse consequences that putin will continue to do i am so inspired by such brave Ukrainians. That is where my focus seems to go. The other day i heard together that a world war three would destroy the world because the nuclear bombs of Russia and U.S. are enough to destroy it. I feel so sorry for Biden since I understand now why he can't start world war 3.
love,
bobby