Just got caught up from the weekend. But I'm so glad you are
doing good Bobby.

I've been proud of you with your exercise also.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

Bobby,

blocks in manhatten are bigger than most blocks.
If I remember correctly.
love you bizi

i walked the hall three times yesterday. will try again today.
i have been so tormented realizing that I will probably outlive Pudge even if the test was a fluke. I called the hotline today. I got great advice. I was told to start talking to her and expressing all my love I have for her and what she has given to me.. I am already feeling less tormented. This has never happened to me before. I have lost many beloved pets.
love,
bobby

i have been reading Meditations by Marcus Aurelius. He never felt anger.

i was sure i would get lung cancer because i was a two pack a day smoker. i didn't care because it made me feel better. Still time.

That was good advice that they gave you. is that the new number 988?
love bizi

nycwell 8886929355 that is the number- open all the time

i tried citrucel and it worked maybe too well.

Bobby,

Keep talking to Pudge and telling her how you feel about her.

Its the way she knows. I know how you feel. I have a very senior
dog named Jake he doesn't probably have much time. But honestly
we said that about nipper for probably the last two years of his life.
And he definetely died of old age. So its really hard to tell.

Jake is over 18 I believe years of age, but he has lived a great life. He
is blind and only finds his voice when he is getting a haircut from Derrick,
or mad about something.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

how much care you give them. wow.
love,
bobby

Bobby

We got Nipper as a puppy and he lived till over 20 years old.
Also Jake was a gift from Kortni and Dan, when her son brought
him home, from his aunt's. So I have probably had him for 5 years
I'm guessing. I think he is close to 17 to 20 years old now. Not sure
really. He was blind when I got him. But he loves the snow. But
he got out in the snow one time, and I thought I had lost him, but
about 3 or so hours later after Dan and I had been searching for
him for hours he came back home.

Derrick's dog Wendy died of old age too. And it was probably the
saddest we had. Because I needed to take her to the vet to be put
to sleep. But she was getting up there in age too. We never knew
for sure how old she was.

We love our dogs, and will always take care of them till the end.
Just like you do.

Donna

can't seem to sleep. went to the dentist for a cleaning and my tooth still hurts. i am such a mess. pudge gets her blood test today. very anxious about that. spent a lot of money this month, especially with the dentist and 2 vet visits and trying to find a laxative that works. i have been sad and depressed anyways and can't shake it. my ibs-c symptoms are awful. rats

just took online 1/2 hour course for mediation. boy do i have racing thoughts.
magnesium oxide worked. i wonder if it will keep on working.at 10 signed up for a course on Jesus from Dorot. excellent teacher-knows her stuff.

Title: Rabbi Jesus: Jewish Life and Traditions in First Century Israel
the course was great-she makes it come alive. i think i want to read the New Testament now.

great quote by marcus aurelius
 

The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.

Marcus Aurelius

i am shaking. won't find out for four or five days the results. she seems so fine. the first blood test cost 250. this one cost 90.

I am so sorry. That is a long time to wait for anyone.I will wait with you. keep posting. I think the meditation is an excellent idea.
glad that you tried it. How do you feel about it?
((((HUGS)))))
love bizi

you are so sweet. Pudgy shows no signs that anything is wrong. Now I wish I hadn't had her get the first blood test.
physically i have been feeling so rotten with my depression and ibs-c. I don't know about you but i am also now always terrified that I won't be able to go. last night i took magnesium oxide and Mag0 and two jars of applesauce and some prune juice. I finally went but i am not sure what worked. i have to look up applesauce. I don't know what to eat.
i had trouble my first class with meditation. i tend to have racing thoughts. i so hate bipolar. i will continue taking the 1/2 hour class. I am hoping valerian root will help my anxiety but so far it hasn't helped. i wish i could afford to go back to smoking.
Robert was such a doll taking Pudge to the vet.
i have been having so much stomach problems that i haven't been able to do much physical therapy.
I think it is time to pay my credit card. i pay it as soon i can. This one again is going to be huge.
I love the class about Jesus. the teacher is awesome. she makes the period come alive. a few time i heard that Jesus spent time in India but she never heard of that.
love,
bobby
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just paid the credit card. the most expensive charge yet. 250 and 90 for vet plus 200 for dentist besides everything else.

my friend alice wrote me this in response to marcus aurelius's quote

Subject: Re: great quote by marcus aurelius

Elegantly expressed. I think nature has a way of protecting most of us from reacting to life by becoming insane.

Subject: great quote by marcus aurelius
The object of life is not to be on the side of the majority, but to escape finding oneself in the ranks of the insane.
Marcus Aurelius

my p.t. went great. was i ever shocked.

the vet called. Pudge is fine.
i have so much anxiety and depression and overeating overspending, and so worried about a laxative. i have been trying so many different things. it is so awful. i will try to find more supplements for anxiety and depression. my medications don't work and when i have tried new ones, not only don't they work but give me bad side effects. My bipolar now is so horrible. There just has been too much stress which I obviously can't handle. I feel so helpless, lonely and scared.

i just had a very good session with my therapist. it was so incredibly painful.

glad that it was good. sorry for the painfulness of it.
love

bizi

I'm so glad that pudge is good. that should help your mind and depression.

But I realize it wont for long.

Keep up all your doing.


donna :hug::grouphug:

maybe it was good that it was painful. i wound up being left without defenses which probably never have helped.
love,
bobby

((((((((HUGS))))))))
love bizi

love you back.
almost got rid of my oldest friend yesterday. what a *****. instead i wrote her about dear friends and my resiliency and accomplishments. i felt naughty but good. i was so obnoxious. so much fun. my ibs-c is so bad, especially after i talked to her. she upset me so much.

she wrote me a nice reply so we are back to being sisters.

Glad your back being sisters again.

Donna:hug::grouphug:

when we were young my name was giggle. her name was fritz. my sister's name was nuts.

I am glad that you patched that up.
Hard to make new friends at least I find it hard.
bizi

definitely especially the older you get. i called the support group. the guy was so fantastic.
love,
bobby

What support group? how did you find out about it? That is great that the guy turned out to be so nice.
love bizi

nycwell 8886929355 this one. open all the time.
love,
bobby

I like your nickname. Giggles maybe you should find some reason
to giggle again. Let the kitties help you.

I never had a nickname. I always thought I might have missed
something

Donna :hug::grouphug:

bobby your nick name was giggles or is donna talking about someone else?
love bizi

my nickname was giggles with linda and my sister's was nuts.
love,
bobby

i went to a proper girl's school and we had chapel services at the start of the
day. i was so afraid of getting kicked out. i would sit next to my best friend ginny and too many times we would start giggling uncontrollably. more then a few times we would get the girls in front of us and in back of us giggling too.

That is a great memory bobby.
((((HUGS))))))
bizi

stomach pain back. free most of the day. no nausea. it has been so bad this week. i hate ibs. so far no blood.
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