My rabbi intern is coming over at 11;30. I am going to call liz krogers’s office . she is our senator first thing in morning to see what they suggest about the incorrect rent bill. It was so exhausting waiting in a queue for the finance office who after much discussion said it was up to the landlord to fix it but my rent was frozen. I stopped Clickpay which automatically takes money from my bank for the rent. Then the manager said don’t quit clickpay and just say the maximum I would pay. I have no idea each month what my electricity will be. Very unsatisfying. I did get the 250 refund from the tax firm finally. It was such a stressful day especially since it started with my phone not working.
last night i turned on music and now wonder if that has been interfering with sleep. will stop that again.
love,
bobby

suri's daughter came over. it was so wonderful. suri died 2 1/2 years ago.

my fall a couple of days ago set back my p.t. rats

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How did you fall bobby?
I am sorry you are having a set back with your PT exercises.
Glad that you spent some time with suri's daughter. I am sure that she
enjoyed your visit too.
love

bizi

i did have a wonderful visit with Suri's daughter. we are going to talk now on facebook.
i was just getting out of bed and i fell. my leg gave way. Here i was making headway.
my new rabbi intern isn't spiritual. what do i do.
finally broke off with one of my oldest friends. i don't know if she is crazy or not. her belief system is so wacko. She thinks she knows why God does what he does. Our past souls help direct us I still love her.
I believe that God is unknowable.
It finally got way to irritating.
love,
bobby

Wonder why your leg gave away?
So sorry you fell.


an irritating friend can be toxic
If you want to save the friendship then you can speak to her about it.
How do you go from here or have you already severed the relationship?
love you
bizi

i still love her but I am fed up up with the know it all. i don't think she analyses.
love,
bobby

Bobby

Sounds like you need a break from her either way. So I'd do that for now.
If you decide you want to keep the friendship tell her you'll talk about other
things after a while but not god.

I don't know otherwise. I am so sorry your knee gave out on you.

donna :hug::grouphug:

my leg feels stronger. it is much better than yesterday. soon will take my walk in the hall. i have no idea why it became so weak.
Was trying to do something with my website and was given wrong information. i decided i have enough problems to deal with and stress makes ibs work. i have given up on my website that i have had for years.
I just ordered a big bottle of Mag0. I think it works for my ibs-c. i take 5 capsules.
strangely i was relieved when my psychiatric nurse practitioner told me that some people are resistant to medication. i felt validated..
Sad but no regrets about Stella.
love,
bobby

just did my walk in the hall. much, much better. i guess the fall had been worse than i thought.

I am glad that you walked better in the hall!
yay!
bizi

walked again. not as great but i did it. i bet i will start having more energy.
love,
bobby really trying

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Bobby

It should also help us all with out sleeping issues when we have them.

I have them about once a week. Which I know isn't bad.

Donna :grouphug:

i can't wait to see if i am having less writing issues i think from long period of exhaustion. sleeping pills have never worked for me.
love,
bobby

i am still extremely stressed about Pudge and her next blood test. She seems so fine and has been coming more often to me on the bed to have her tummy rubbed. This morning aby jumped on the bed and scared her off. am still stressed about my rent bill. I had to send it to Florida. I hope the hurricane didn't interfere with the mail. I have two friends who are lawyers and my senator's office is really great for help.
I sleep more and I think I went to bed early. I did have a stomach ache all night. At least I definitely got more sleep. Mag0 still is working and I am not having diarrhea. I freaked when a woman on Facebook wrote that her colon was taken out and still didn't solve problem. After years she found a supplement that has helped big time.
Hopefully I will take two walks in the hall. That could be a mammoth relief if I was able to walk more. if only.
I just took a bath and hand washed a few things. Last night I had two cans of cream of mushroom soup that were low in calories, cheap and not that high in sodium. I bought more vitamins, I have so many pills. a lot are on my bed and on the floor. i have such a hard time finding what I want. rats.
I have been trying to remember when certain things prevented my depression and anxiety throughout my life and when I experienced joy.
love,
bobby

(((((((HUGS)))))))
bizi
love you

Bobby

I'm loving your threads and updates right now. You are doing so good.

Hope you got the two walks in the hall.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

thanks so much. i have had so many stressful things happen for a while although now the price of medicine, getting my money back from the tax place, the rent mess almost, getting the money back from the web site. Being so anxious about Pudge is the killer. She seems so fine that I am hoping that the test was a fluke.
Sam called yesterday. He was back from his vacation in Germany and had a fantastic time with all his friends . He told me he did go to my internist for a check up and thought he was such a nice guy. I am going to look for supplements because his cholesterol was a little and he is only 30. He was funny when I told him I was worried that my rent check sent to Florida would get lost because of the hurricane. He said I was really creative in thinking the worse. I laughed.
today Kathy is taking me to get my hair cut and hopefully be able to walk to a restaurant that has outdoor seating. it is a block and a half away from the hair dresser. Tomorrow she will go with me for another booster and flu shot. That drug store is only 2 blocks a way. I will try to walk there to. She is being so nice to me. Alice said Kathy really cares about me and is helping her to worry less about me. Alice lives in Westchester but would always help when i had to go the hospital and be with me when I recovered from major surgery and then when I saw my two surgeons. Since she broke her hip and fractured her pelvis and is older, physically she is in no shape to help me.
Last night i got so depressed I tried to escape and go to bed at 7. That was a new one. I just couldn't get out of bed till a little while ago. . I had an awful stomach ache, gas and nausea from the ibs-c. most of the night and thought the worse.
Please let Pudgy be okay.
love,
bobby hopeful about Pudge and my being able to walk further.

good luck today with kathy! I hope you can walk to the restaurant.
love bizi

it was fine. i still don't have a stomach ache. i had a big hamburger, lots of french fries tomatoes onions and cole slaw and delicious coffee. i don't get it. i still haven't gotten a stomach ache. weird.
love,
bobby

You made it to the restaurant!!!!!!!!!
I am so happy for you!
maybe your stomach got a break from the worrying of things and you got a nice lunch out of it..Nice to have a break.
bizi happy for your luncheon!
love you

i fell again. rats

i am okay but balance a little worse and a little back pain.
I guess. yesterday i was waiting for the worse pain.kathy took me out to lunch and I ate everything that i have been avoiding because of my ibs-c. I felt fine. Then I didn't take a laxative and this morning had a couple of suppositories and coffee and went. I don't understand.
love,
bobby

Hoping the fall doesn't set you back. But you are doing so well.

I think you are doing great. It sounds like you need to make
plans once a week to get out.

Donna :hug::grouphug:

it did set me back and i had trouble walking two blocks to get my shots and had to take a cab two blocks to get home. i also had to rest a lot at the drug store. i definitely need somebody to go with me when i am outside.
love,
bobby

i almost fell another time last night. I am hoping I won't break or sprain anything. i was such a great athlete except for swimming.

I am sorry you keep falling.That your balance is off.
love bizi

it is a bit scary when i start going down.
love,
bobby

i am such a wreck and my stomach hurts. i wrote the manager of my building to see if they fixed the rent yet. this was my second email. Then i just left a voicemail to another worker there. i always think the worse- i hate this depression and feeling terrified.

Think I am making progress with my rent. got a call back from one of the people in the building and was told to call finance and have them send a copy of the tax abatement for scrie.
i had just gotten information from the finance department which had new current rent and abatement credit. I was told today the building is receiving it.
I had told the building that my new lease was the same as my old lease.
Still a stomach ache but I think things make soon be resolved.
was so frightenedly depressed this morning and felt i just couldn't cope. I can't wait for pudgy's new blood test.

I hope this situation will resolve quickly now, it sounds as though it will.
Sorry for your stomach. Stress and IBS don't do well together.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

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i ate too many raisins last night and suffered all night and again got severely depressed and couldn't sleep much. i threw out the raisons and craisins this morning..
this is my biggest terror week. Robert is taking pudge for another blood test.
I so hope the last one was a fluke. She seems so fine.
Last night i took 2 cape aloe vera pills. I did go but I don't know if it was from them. i will try again tonight. It would be great if they really worked for constipation. i still have bottles of magnesium citrate liquid but am afraid to use the up. they might not sell them again. a friend said she would write the recipe her genius devoted husband figured out.
My p.t. was proud of me yesterday. he said i was going the correct pace-slow. I go fast but yesterday could only go slow.
love,
bobby so scared

I went, had a bm today. after taking 1 biscodyl and accidently took 2 of my linzess. They are not working for me.It has been 6 weeks. greatest relief is
supposed to be in 12 weeks.I keep having to take laxatives because I get constipated. and need relief.
sigh
love,
bizi

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I wish i could afford my former psychiatrist because he could help me find a medication that might help. he stopped taking medicare and would charge 60 a month for clonazapam..
I am severely depressed as usual and can't control my eating which is making my ibs-c even worse. I ordered food yesterday but still can't make myself put it in the freezer and refrigerator. i throw out so much food anyways..
i am sleeping more and go to bed at 8.
pudgy still acting fine and will have her last blood test on thursday. i am freaking out about that.
i am starting NAC and am about to order valerian root.;
i hope i can get myself to continue reading Marcus Aurelius- a really good guy.
i will try to do three sets of exercises each day.
weird i had the third booster on Monday and have gotten back some of my cognitive abilities i lost after the second booster.
my stomach is aching.

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thinking of yo today bobby.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

I hope things are better today. I'm glad you could get the two blocks
to the drug store. That was the good accomplishment.

Even when having to take a cab back.

Donna :hug::grouphug: