i was relieved today. i called linda last week and she didn't call back. i was so hurt. she called today and said she has been going through with a ton of problems such as irs, facebook where she has over 600 friends and her account was hacked,migraines, her son's surgery, her needing a new oncologist and now besides her crippling arthritis, her lower legs all of a sudden have bad circulation and needs to go the doctor., and now even constipation. poor linda but she never gets depressed.
everything is going fantastic with aaron and his new job at a university. he was just complimented after four weeks and told he was one the best they ever hired. his father went with him. he used inspect airplanes so it was a no brainer for him to inspect a car for aaron. aaron said the price dropped over 2000 dollars in the past two weeks. he and his wife are moving into their new apartment next week and his father has a truck so they will do all the moving themselves. aaron is the greatest.
i have been so utterly stressed that i wake up in the middle of the night nauseated. i just can't stop worrying about everything and thinking the worse. i have been having so many stomach aches that i hardly have been doing my p.t. exercises. I am still waiting for my lease to returned.
i found a new author who i really enjoy. i am on her second book.
linzess worked yesterday but all morning i kept on feeling i had to go and i kept on peeing. i never experienced anything like that before. i took another pill two hours ago and waiting to see if anything will happen. rats, i am so frightened. i am all over the place.
love,
bobby
it was so nice talking to sam on sunday. if i could walk he said we could go for walks,

i would never kill myself because i am terrified of God. I can't stand it when i wish i were dead. i read quotes from s the bible every day that are sent to me. i really should start reading the psalms again because they deal with suffering.
last night it was so bad.
I am also very worried about money. guess what i just bought three pairs of shoes from ebay. the shoes i have only been wearing i think have stretched out so maybe one of what i bought will work.
aby has been very affectionate this morning. aby and pudge are another deterrent.
i have been tormenting myself that i can't afford to buy Danny food that he loves more than hamburger. i discussed a lot with my therapist and kept on calling myself crazy. finally she convinced me to to write him that i would love to buy the food but i can only afford the hamburger.

i finally wasn't feeling well so i turned it on for half an hour. it really helped.

Dear bobby,
I am glad that it helped.
love bizi

i don't know why but i woke up feeling GOOD. First time in ages. I had no itching, my eyes and nose were fine and i slept better.i
just bought a very cheap clip on fan for marci. i don't know if it will help or not. just bought a small covered pot to cook my buckwheat.
I did call the hotline yesterday and this time talked a peer. she was lovely. i didn't realize it is a 24 hour seven day a week hotline.
nycwell 8886929355
fantastic resource.
i walked in the hall with my walker but went a little backwards. i will try later and see what gives.
looking forward to seeing my eye doctor tomorrow. he is utterly fantastic in all ways. hope he says i can wait for cataract surgery.
hopefully sam is calling tonight. he has repeatedly asked if there a silver lining. i am finally going to tell him that it helps big time to get closer to God.

bizi try Mag 0. it worked and NO STOMACHES AT ALL. amazing.
Love,
bobby

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