I'm wishing I could figure out a way to get you the same high that
you get to the shopping you do. Some other way.

Lets see if we can figure something out.

Donna

just got this back from yesterday's blood test. Your labs look very good, all in an acceptable range. I had peed when i got to the doctor's office so didn't have enough to be tested. will be tested next monday. But still big relief.

I am glad your labs were good.
That is a big relief!
love

bizi

thanks. still worried about the urine test but you know me. i always think the worse. Hyleys Slim Tea Acai Berry Flavor - Weight Loss Herbal Supplement Cleanse and Detox - 25 Tea Bags (1 Pack) Tried that yesterday. only had one cup but said you can have up to three. today i will have three. it worked. could have worked better but still. bought at amazon. just bought more.
yesterday the Rabbi intern called. Is HE EVER BRIGHT. I have been giving him such a hard time. He wound up showing me that I have always set impossible standards for myself that I don't hold for others. I am very compassionate whereas others with my experiences would have grown up bitter. He explained why I got I got the IBS after Suri died. He said once she died I went into mourning. It made so much sense. i got more from the one phone call than i have gotten from all my therapy sessions.
love,
bobby

Bobby

I'm glad you keep finding more and more people to talk too.

Its doing you lots of good. I am also glad he gave you some insight
as to why your ibs has gotten so much worse since the death of your
best friend.

Donna

had two cups of the tea I mentioned in last post. it really worked and I went a lot and it wasn't mushy. I think it is going to keep on working. Time will tell.
Up all night. what a bummer. Thought so much about my life and how my bipolar really made me do so much self destructive behavior and demands. so sad.

Bobby

You will do great just think of the good things you have done.

Donna

I think you are wonderful.
love bizi

i knew i screwed up. i left a message with Dorot over 2 weeks ago about having a visitor deliver a thanksgiving dinner and visiting for a while and I didn't get a call back. yesterday I called my friend David who is connected with Dorot and heard his lovely wife in the background saying I wasn't on the list. It was so nice talking to him. I gave him my p.t.'s number. Already a neighbor i only know by sight is now using him because i told her how nice he was and she got him another client who lives in the building. that made me feel good.
Finally that tea worked again after I had coffee. I had a stomach ache all night.
When I speak to the Rabbi Intern next time since he seems to really understand me I'll ask him how can I help myself with the persistent feelings I want to die but I don't want to be apart from my kitties. i am not suicidal.

i have been using a gum brush besides a tooth brush. I don't know why my hygienist hadn't told me about one before. my tooth has been bothering me and i thought i was going to have it pulled. so far it has worked wonders. the tooth no longer hurts.