Took the Provogil when I picked it up around noon or so. It's a low dose the pharmacist said. 100 mg.

I guess it worked, but I really have to take it first thing in the AM.

Because I am not tired at all now, and it's 10:30 pm, but I haven't taken my BP meds yet, so that will make a difference.

Everything is fine with Dirk and I. Just an argument, words said, we talked, all worked out, hey it's normal to have a blow out or argument now and then, good actually - clears the air.

My cousin is home, all went ok, she will know more tomorrow, she has to call the surgeon, she was real groggy and out of it when I talked to her when she got home.
Hugs, Nikko

Maybe chart your moods for a bit? That way you can look back and see if the new med is effecting you at all. It's hard to see our own imbalances sometimes.

Just a suggestion.

I am glad your cousin is ok. That must help a little with your stress. I know she is more like a sister to you.

That's good idea. I did wake up once last night, which is better, doesn't make sense though since I took the Provogil in the afternoon.

Took it at 6am this morning. Feel pretty good. Went to bed at 11:30. I was thinking maybe I was going to bed too early. Dirk does because he as to be up at 5am. I was always an early to bed, unless a show I wanted to see was on, or I was out.

My cousin didn't even know what was going on with the tumors on her uterus, I got it wrong before saying it was her ovaries. She also had a D & C and her tubes tied. She was really groggy and out of it.
So, I will know more today, once she call's the surgeon, and me.

I have my domestic violence session today....Yes, I still go, just not as much.
I really have to, this is something that will never leave my mind. The bad thing is I think I tend to take it out on Dirk sometimes and he wouldn't hurt a fly. I need to stop that, I don't mean to, but after being assaulted and verbally abused, by my ex husband, I still have fear, it's an awful feeling. I guess I still have PTSD in some way.

Well, Nov. 7th is the GYN specialist in ONGOLOGY, so that's on my mind, I hope when I get there and talk to her, I will be more at ease.

I've got to say, things have to get better, since a year ago July with my ex and all, mom back in hospital, my surgery, my cousin's, now this new appt.
I'm mentally at my wits end. Yet, I keep on truckin, what can you really do.

Hugs to all, Nikko

Dear Nikko,
Things will get better. You are doing well to keep on truckin.

Mari
ps
Where is Friday check in?

Glad that you worked things out with Dirk.
You have one heck of a year...so many stressors...I would be in a mental hospital I think with all that you put up with....if that happened to me.
Keeping my fingers crossed for the provigil...hope it works for you!
take care my friend.
(((HUGS)))
bizi

I surprized I am not in a mental hospital, but been there, done that, besides ending up in the ER more than I can count.

I really have too much, with my pets and mom and I am happy with Dirk, my firends, so I would rather try to cope as much as I can and stay strong as I can, not just for me, but for them.

OH, don't get me wrong, I sure have my moments to say the least, but they pass.

I have a real hard time with the HOLIDAYS, last Xmas I ended up in the ER. back East a few times too.
I am hoping this year I don't get depressed and can enjoy them, will see.

p.s. One thing I could REALLY use a vacation or getaway.

Dirk has a top up camper, so we might do that on a lake soon for a night, it has everything in it, and I could take one of my dogs.

Hugs, Nikko