[Nikko]

The good news is that Dirk and I had a long long talk about everything, and decided to give it another try. Everyone makes mistakes, God knows I have, so things are much better and he knows exactly how I feel.

Mom is drinking, depresssed and wants to die, yet she is not suicidle. She is refusing her meds now.

Dirk and I are supposed to go away Sat. night to Tombstone, wanted to get some Xmas gifts there, have dinner, stay overnight and come back Sun.

With the way my mother is now, that is shot. She pee'd the bed more than once this week, it's 8am and she is drunk. She has a DR's appt tomorrow and at this point, I doubt she will go. One never knows around here. I have found her on the floor in here bedroom, yelling for me. She says she has nothing to look forward to and nothing to do. Well, I have been through that too, with all the options and resources for her. Besides taking her out myself. So, I give up.

I can't go away for one day and night, and trust her to take care of herself and the pets. I sometimes think she does this, so I won't go and leave for one night, why? I don't know.

Plus, my PC is on the blink, a few minor problems, so I need to bring it in to be cleaned up and checked out.

I gave up on stopping her from drinking, it doesn't work, if one wants to drink they will and they will get it anyway they can.

Ok, enough of me venting....thanks for listening.

Nikko