You "cashew"

((((((Sue))))))

It's a whole process. It isn't just that you say "OK, I'm not afraid of anything". You've also got to put out your INTENTIONS for what you DO WANT in your life (that's the Mondo Beyondo list part).

I'm still laughing Thanks for making me smile today. BIG HUGS.

Barb

Mondo Beyondo -- 2008

from: http://www.superherodesigns.com/jour...s/2008_01.html

I've got a HUGE problem with initiative -- just gettings things started -- since my Mom died (1983) ... since my ex-husband died (1996) ... since my son went to prison AGAIN (1997). And the big kick-to-the-curb ... since I retired in 2001 -- not my choice, but, I felt I had no choice at the time.

I've been getting a little bit more depressed every year. A little more detached every year. A little worse in maintaining my life every year.

But, still -- realizing the HUGE accomplishment that THE DOCTOR and I achieved from 1979 to 1984 in getting me to stop trying to kill myself. I HAVE STOPPED

I've spent so much of my life depressed and isolated and protecting myself from ever getting hurt again as much as my Brother hurt me by killing himself .. that I've gotten myself into a place that I don't like very much -- don't like at all.

This Mondo Beyond "Thing" is the first thing that I've seen in years -- decades -- that's what I've been looking for -- a way to accomplish the major attitude shift that I need to accomplish in order to live the rest of my life.

Such a simple thing. Just a different viewpoint on my life. But, such a lovely tradition to start NOW. Forgive myself for last year (and last year, and last year, and last year) and promise myself to do better. What a NICE thought

I care about you guys so much. You've given me a safe, supportive place to be and to go. I'm able to offer support back (which, if you knew my earlier history, after I lost my Brother) is a HUGE DEAL.

Us Bipolar-ers and Borderline Personality Disorder-ers (spellings) are very tightly connected. Wouldn't surprise me a bit to find out that we're all related way back in the tree somewhere But, BIGGEST of all, we're all slogging along on a very similar journey. Trying to overcome years of being stomped on and trying to find a place to fit. And trying to accept what we've become.

This whole Mondo Beyond list thing is such a simple idea. So easy to think about. And then start. And has such potential for making such a a huge difference.

And yet, what it is is ACCEPTANCE. Such a simple concept. Yet, such a beautiful gift.

HUGS for the room. This is gonna be a good year for all of us:


Barb

Hi Barb,

Good Idea

What I want to aknowledge myself for inn 2007

Getting along with my life without the abuse of my ex in the past 12 years. But most of all, taking on the care of a neighbor who had a terminal illness and in the process realizing I am somebody.

What was there to grieve about in 2007?

The loss of my marriage even though it was bad, the death of my neighbor, and then the death of my ex-husband.

What declares 2007 as complete?

I become a better person and now can use it in 2008. I want to concentrate on me also for change.

befuddled2