[Mari]

Hi,

I called my work friend's apt today. (His crap is still in my office and I want it out now that he is clearly not coming back to work and the school year has ended.)
The phone is disconnected and the telephone company had no record of either him or his boyfriend of having a new/any phone number.

I tried to be reasonable about this information and go about my business today anyway, but I was extraordinary unsuccessful.

I had to go to a work party tonight and nearly cried when I got there due to the stress of the drive through rush hour city traffic and having to figure out how to follow directions to a new place. Then I had a miserable time.
These people were soooooo annoying and depressing. I don't like most of them. I had to try very hard not to freak out while I was there.
Anyone paying attention would have noticed that I was heading toward instability.

Then I came home and still felt like crap and on the verge of a freak out.

Finally I realized that the work friend is throwing me off.
I remember his mean spiritedness, his high anxiety, his difficulty functioning, and especially what he put me through these last couple of years.

I think that it is time that I forget about him and his deeds.
Right now, I'm tired and stressed.

I need to move on to make good memories that can feed me in my the future.
Mari