[Pamster]

Since we didn't have one yet I figured I'd go ahead and make it again. Hope everyone's gearing up for a good weekend. We have a four hour round trip tomorrow on top of the reception and memorial service. I hope it goes well, I am worried about how Jackie is going to act, I will probably have to miss the service and take the lil guy in a room and sit there in the church during the service unless by some chance he'll sit quietly and listen. Chances of that are slim to none in my mind but as this was Jack's grandfather it's important he be there and listening, I don't mind helping to make that happen.

I went to a thrift store today to get some shoes and they had the perfect low heeled pair sitting out front in their Friday Freebie box! I was tickeled pink! well the shows are dark navy blue, almost black and I feel good about that, Jackie has hemmed pants now (since I finished hemming them about 20 minutes ago) and both of their dress shirts are pressed. I hope I can sleep good tonight, been using the cpap and sleeping much better. Wish us luck tomorrow on getting through the ordeal, I hope we get home by nine, the service is at 2 pm and who knows how long it will be.

[Mari]

I love getting new shoes!
But I haven't needed to buy any in years because I wear Birkenstocks and they last forever.

If I have to go somewhere where I need dressy shoes, I stay home. lol


I hope you have a good safe uneventful trip.
These family funerals can be hard. But sometimes it feels important to be together for these events too.

That's great about the Cpap and sleeping.

Mari

[Abbie]

My weekend started on a so-so note.


I'm home alone this weekend and as much as I enjoy having the house to myself most of the time.... I don't know that this is a good time to be alone.


Guess I'll just hold my breath and do the best I can.


I hope everyone has a good weekend.

<-----this is how I feel and I'm the only one here.

Abbie

[bizi]

Originally Posted by Abasaki

My weekend started on a so-so note.


I'm home alone this weekend and as much as I enjoy having the house to myself most of the time.... I don't know that this is a good time to be alone.


Guess I'll just hold my breath and do the best I can.


I hope everyone has a good weekend.

<-----this is how I feel and I'm the only one here.

Abbie

THere are folks here you can chat with if you feel like it.
I will also check in with you abbie.....
Do you have a garden to work in?
What hobbies do you have?
Any pets?
I am sorry do you have a hubby and kiddos?
they are away this weekend?
bizi

[Abbie]

Originally Posted by bizi

THere are folks here you can chat with if you feel like it.
I will also check in with you abbie.....
Do you have a garden to work in?
What hobbies do you have?
Any pets?
I am sorry do you have a hubby and kiddos?
they are away this weekend?
bizi

No garden... I can't handle being in the sun too long.

My hobbies were of the active type---rollerblading, running, martial arts.... I haven't found any new ones that I can really do--my hands cramp up to a fist quite often.

No pets.... not allowed to have any while I'm living here.

Not married and have no kids.

I live at my parents since I am unable to work and they are gone for the weekend.... Normally I love it when they are gone.

My last real life friend decided she can't handle what I am going through...she said she's tired and just can't be there for me any longer.

My therapist wants me to journal my feelings...but when I try... I can't stop crying. So I have about a fourth of a page written and stopped.

I've learned this week that it truly is a lonely world when you really are alone.

Abbie

[bizi]

Dear Abbie,
I am sorry...journaling can do that to you.
Crying can be very cathartic...they say...I don't cry much myself....Maybe I should try to do that.
May I ask why your hands make fists?
ARe you able to go for walks?
or join a gym for therapy and to meet people...not be so isolated.
any neighbors who could use a dog walker?
Have you ever heard of pet sitters/walkers.
WE use a gal who works down the street from us as a groomer. She checks in on our cats while we are on vacation. She comes 3 times a week.
anyway.
Thinking of you sweetie....
(((((HUGS))))
bizi

[Mari]

Dear Abasaki,
Do you have good drs who help you with the pain and other issues?
Maybe while you have lots of space you can find something to appreciate that you don't usually have a chance to do.
If you can't go for walks can you sit out side when the sun is low and the weather is good? Is there something you like?

Maybe when you can't journal too much you can draw pictures or write a poem or words from a song. -- just some ideas.
Your fourth of a page sounds like you made a good effort.

Dear Brokenfriend,
The Klonopin can mess up your memory a little, but I think you prob have a small dose. I know that being anxious and depressed can mess up memory too.
Pamster takes Abilify. She is on a trip today.

Dear Bizi,
What's up for your weekend?


Mari

[Brokenfriend]

My Psychiatrist has helped me over 20 years. Before him I had another one. Before that one I had another one. This goes back to the early 70's. My current psychiatrist helps me a little.

I now have a Nurse Practitioner helping me also.

I don't get any real therapy right now,and moving close to my sister was good at first,but recently it's been a emotionally poisonous experience.

I'm a much better person then what she's made me sound like. I forgive her. It's probably her MS. I have to make sure that I don't identify with what she makes me sound like.

After all these years,and all the progress,my sister is smothering the results of this help,in a few years,and she doesn't even really know it. It must be the MS,and I forgive her.

I need to pull myself up,get on the right medicine,and re-evaluate my circumstances. I've been through to much to feel of no value suddenly. I know that when I put my mind to it,I can achieve interesting things. Brokenfriend

[Dmom3005]

Good plan Brokenfriend.

Abby pain levels of 9 and 10 are very hard to deal with all the time. I hope they come up with some kind of medicine that can help you. I know exactly how it feels. I have been dealing with that too.

I'm getting ready to have another neck surgery on july 2nd, and we will see if that helps at all. But it also is interesting he put me on neurotin and imitrex to try and elevate some of the pain in the head and some of the overall pain in the muscles and things. I'm really hoping that if the neurotin turns out to
work I can continue on it, it seems to be showing a promising so far, and its not been long yet. So I'm very pleased.

I am really not sure what to expected from the surgery coming up but I'll try anything to get over some of this pain in the daily life of mine.

Hoping all are having a good weekend.

Donna

[Pamster]

Originally Posted by Mari

I love getting new shoes!
But I haven't needed to buy any in years because I wear Birkenstocks and they last forever.

I usually wear men's sneakers becase my foot is really wide, women's shoes are just too narrow for me. vMom used to buy Birkenstocks and you're right they do last forever!

If I have to go somewhere where I need dressy shoes, I stay home. lol

If it was up to me I would stay home but Jack needs us there for moral support so we're going. I know it will be uncomfortable, but heck they are cute shoes. Just what I wanted too, much nicer then the yucky flats I had that are like a mock loafer.

I hope you have a good safe uneventful trip.
These family funerals can be hard. But sometimes it feels important to be together for these events too.

Thanks Mari, I will post when we get back if I can, it might be late and I might have to cook, hopefully not, but you never know going into a day trip like this what the dinnertime results will be, eating out or rushing home to cook.

I agree, it feels important to be together right now. Thanks for caring, hope you have a great weekend!

That's great about the Cpap and sleeping.

Mari

It is great to be sleeping better too. Just had to share that too.