Quick update: long one tomorrow

- dana staying here/being extremely nice.
- ignoring mike, he got mad, now texting nicely
- messed up at work Big Time.
- school ever!?
- crazy stalker girl contacting me again.


bhfgbhrftgbwrtnb i feel sick to my stomach.

I hope you feel better in the morning.
rest well.
bizi

another drop on the roller coaster.

updates (i owe you guys a huge long post ill do it when i can)
-dana staying over
-mike 'coming back' /staying tonight
-job is done.
-orientation tmrw (no books or anything)
- contacts

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meg,
please put both of these guys on hold.
The most important thing going on is your new school.
just my opinion of course but this is not the best way to sart something new with all of this drama to interfer with your studies.
bizi

its funny you say put them on hold and focus on school because Dana is MAKING me focus on school (he like tells me to go to bed early and stuff haha its cute)

okay I'm gonna break this down into 3
Dana, Mike then other (including school and work)


Dana
Danas been so so nice and i cant say how helpful hes being. he makes all the bad stuff i think about go away, but thats also kinda scary for me. i dont need a distraction i need answers, but hes welcome to distract me for now, i know at one point if this gets more serious im going to explain to him about my anxiety and everything. He sleeps at my house some nights. I know that seems really fast but it fits. hes kinda friends with my brother and everyone here likes him. i dunno.

Mike
so mike slept here the night before last. he was working in the town next to mine and he said it would be nice to hang out and asked if he could stay. i said yeah because id feel terrible saying no, and i regret it now. all night i wanted it to be dana with me not mike. kwrjhvkrjtvb


Other
So apparently I 'quit' my job. I was scheduled on Sunday without me knowing and didn't go. So whatever I'm not even upset. I just need to find a new job ASAP. Orientation was stupid. Still didn't get my books. School starts Tuesday and I'm not even excited (except for the fact Dana said he'd help me get up early) i dont even know and on top of it all, i havent been to the Pdoc recently, and i ran out of contacts so i look stupid with my glasses all the time.

I just want a good job and to go school shopping.

Hi Meg,
Tomorrow prioritize looking for a job. Try the classifieds, the employment office, even temp agancies.
Can your parents give you a small advance at least help with the books?
I would also ask at school for work programs, they often have several.
I am super nutty withe the switch to cyber school for Katie, we had to hang our photos for the photography exhibit on Sept 2, also her first day of Cyber charter school.

Working on the after school program for the middle school.......
Need to pencil in time for a bubble bath.
Tomorrow a long day, I am consulting an attorney over my older daughters estate.
Emotional...will catch up tomorrow....bu look for that job, you will feel better.
di

Dear Meg,


Sending hugs.
I'm confused about the Mike / Dana so I won't comment.
Do what the right thing is for you. Do only that. Nothing less.

I want you to get a good job and enjoy school too.

Mari

Hi Meg,
Tomorrow prioritize looking for a job. Try the classifieds, the employment office, even temp agancies.
Can your parents give you a small advance at least help with the books?
I would also ask at school for work programs, they often have several.
I am super nutty withe the switch to cyber school for Katie, we had to hang our photos for the photography exhibit on Sept 2, also her first day of Cyber charter school.

Working on the after school program for the middle school.......
Need to pencil in time for a bubble bath.
Tomorrow a long day, I am consulting an attorney over my older daughters estate.
Emotional...will catch up tomorrow....bu look for that job, you will feel better.
di

everything is so hectic.

You are in my thoughts sweetie,
I hope that the nice weather family and friends are with you over the long holiday weekend.
If you want to spend it in bed like I did today, so be it

Do what makes you happy and safe.
Hugs
di