I just typed out like 6 long paragraphs of explanation and stuff that would help me show you how I'm feeling and it all got erased...I'm dizzy and would rather pass out then have to think about everything againn and type it all out.

I'm sorry. I wish I could just type everything out at once and I can't and I feel terrible that I can't express what I'm thinking without stupid things getting in the way.


I just wanna cry.

Sending lots of hugs, Meg.
M.

Meg

All you have to say is I can't type now.

Or I am tired.

We are here. And I agree Hugs.

Donna

oh I hate that when that happens, sometimes I will write stuff then save it and then edit to add more stuff save then edit add more stuff...just a thought.
bizi

Carved pumpkins tonight...

I carved Optimus Prime.

First of all, I like the pumpkin!!! Very creative. I have panic disorder, which is basically a continual spiralling of anxiety attacks one after the other, through the night. The first thing I had to learn was to dissassociate whatever I was doing at the time from the panic attack. For instance, I had one when I was driving, so I didn't drive. Then it was other situations as my anxiety got worst, more progressive. My pdoc has me on a mood stabilizer, lithium, which helps me to cope, and deal with situations that I find stressful and unmanageable. The second thing is sleep. She ( my pdoc ) told me that when I can get a full 8 hours of sleep for at least 2-3 days in a row, my anxiety would go away. Now Ive been an insomniac since I was 14, so sleeping meds was not new to me, but being bipolar, she put me on klonopin, and trazedone. The trazedone also helps with the "waking up in a panic" is what I call it. For no reason at all, I would just wake up in the middle of a deep sleep, with an anxiety attack. But the meds Im on are working for me and my last anxiety attack was in March. I have been on wellbutrin before, but did not get anything out of it. Its very important that you find a pdoc that you get along with, and that you like. Even though you may not like the change, remember it can be a change for the better. And right now your emotional health is your priority. Ive been diagnosed for eleven years and finally got a doctor that is just what I need. Heck I have her cell number and can call her at night, on weekends, if Im having problems. Also, I was recently sick, I thought I had the flu, but a lot of over the counter meds for colds can't be mixed with psych meds. So, my pdoc wrote me a script for an antibiotic and told me what over the counter meds I could take. As an example, I did not know I can not take ibuprofen and lithium at the same time. I just didn't think there was a problem. But now I take excedrin, which, once again, my pdoc recommended. So please find one that YOU are happy with.

had a panic attack tonuight....wonderful....all thanks to my mom...shes a real pal.... will it never end?!

Hi, Meg,
It does get better. You can bring what you want into your life.
Mari

How do you get diagnosed with Bipolar? does a Pdoc do it or a psychologist or a therapist? who has the degree to say "You have bipolar disorder."

I need a dx. When I get overwhelmed and pre-panicy, its because I don't understand Why I'm acting the way I am, or what is causing it. I feel like if I had a Dx I could be like... Okay, this is _______, I can fix it by ______. I know bp and other disorders are hard to dx but I need something solid soon. I'm the type of person that if there is a definate problem, then there is an answer, and I get very determined to find it.

If I was told I have bipolar, I would immediately start looking up what it means exactly and what I can do/take/get to make it better, so then I'll have those coping skills to battle it in the future.

But all I know right now is....I have panic attacks. I go from very happy some days to extremely depressed others. I take meds for the panic and now depression. I have problems sleeping and I just want to know for sure what the deal is.

YOu don't like your pdoc if I remember correctly, then it is time to get a new one.
BEing 18 is very hard to know what is normal 18 year old stuff and what is not normal. When do you see your pdoc next?
Have you asked about being put on a mood stabilizer for your mood swings? ARe you seeing a therapist too?
Now is the time for you to take charge of your treatments!
I wish you much luck, you can make this happen.
bizi
I am 45 by the way....but I am not a mom.
So maybe I could be your aunt.