I don't like my pdoc at all, but the thought of having to find another one through my network is so overwhelming and scary to me. I'd like a new one but I'm scared to hurt his feelings and to try and find someone new.=/ Next time I see him is Thursday. I'm on Wellbutrin right now i dunno if thats a mood stabilizer but it really doesnt do anything (he perscribed it for depression but it doesnt effect me negatively or positively)

im not seeing a 'therapist' per se but im seeing the school councelor and hes been somewhat helpful, but ihate being limited to an hour. ive had like day dreams/visions of how a therapists visit should go in my head even what the 'office' would look like but the chances of there being a therapist that fits that 'vision' is prob slim to none.

im sick of being upset.

Dear Meg,
Wellbutrin is an Anti-Depressant.
It worked for me. I was on a mood stabilizer at the same time.

For some people, Wellbutrin INCRESEASES anxiety.

In fact, many anti-depressants can increase anxiety unless the person is on a mood stabilzer at the same time.

How much Wellbutrin are you on? Maybe you are on two low a dose for it to have any effect on you.

When you see the pdoc, impress upon him the amount of anxiety you are having. Make sure he UNDERSTANDS it.

Anxiety is hard for someone to understand unless they have ever been through it.

Mari

I take wellbutrin but im not on a mood stablizer and I have badd mood swings, they've been getting progressively worse. I take 2 100mg tablets a day...I was on 3 but my half awake/pre-sleep/waking up 'hallucinations' were terrible on 3 so my pdoc cut me back to 2 a day. I haven't noticed my anxiety getting worse while on it but its not getting better, and i'm still getting mood swings.

when i see him thursday i'm going to give him a list of symptoms that are bothering me.

this sounds excellant meg
bizi

edited to add that he is not a god and he is working for you that is what you pay him for.
I would suggest that you use the mood chart to help document your moods and give him something to look at, you can even do it retroactively to reflect the near past.

it is called mood tracker:

Here is an on-linet
http://moodtracker.com

too depressed to go to see my councelor guy. and i wont be able to see him next tuesday due to veterans day (which is mikes birthday too)... my birthday is coming up too but im not excited about it at all.

ive been told i dont 'deserve' a birthday. multiple years in a row. so why get exited about this one? mikes family is close that they celebrate everyones birthday we just celebrated mike's sisters fiances birthday and hes only been 'in the family' for not even 6 months...but this will be my second birthday with mikes family and they wont even awknowlege it. I dont know I feel like my birthday should be the One day where I'm happy and people should be happy for/with me...i have a right to be selfish on my birthday...

but it never happens...I cant remember a birthday where I havent cried or been dissapointed.

and on top of all of that, i start work at cvs pharmacy soon, and the whole time ive been excited, but now im just upset. the hours they want me to work are terrible, ill never see mike, his birthday, my birthday and thanksgiving are all coming up and i doubt ill be able to take them off...its terrible imeven trying to take days off before i even start working.

but i know they wont be sympathetic to my depression or my anxiety.

meg,
you are still going to your pdoc appointment tomorrow right?
bizi

yeah im going to tell him about my mood swings and my random bouts of severe depression. i dont think the wellbutrin is doing anything for me. its not helping with depression its just kinda like...nothing. i dont even know i only take my diazapam when im about to have a panic attack so thats find, i like how its as needed...but i dont like that the wellbutrin is take it every morning...and it still doesnt do anything, if theres a medication to take 'as needed' for bouts of depression that would be great, but i dunno if theres even a medication that does that so i dunno... hmm

im also gonna ask him about my sleeping, i cant sleep straight through the night and its killing me and im constantly sore...like from not sleeping in the right position or like sitting the wrong way...im just sore and achey all the time.

dear meg,
I don't think there is anything on the market for depression that is jsut take as needed. You must take them everyday. and many of them take weeks to get into your system to see if it is going to work for you.
cymbalta is an antidepressant that is also for pain suffers, you mentioned soreness and that is why I brought it up.
I am still in favor of my lamictal, for mood swings and for antidepressant qualtities...kind of like 2 pills in one.
Good luck tomorrow.
bizi

My insurance company have been giving me doctors outside of my network. And I am upset because I have been lied to. So my Pdoc is out of network unfortunately but the office itself has offered me a charity case. I am so appreciative of that!
Thank goodness! I have not the names of the people who have gave me docs out of network.

Can I still report what has happened anyways?

Sharla

Diazapam is different. You don't have to take them every day for them to work. They work after each use. It also has a long half life.

Wellbutrin is a antidepressant,and those have to be taken regularly every day as far as I know. It may take 3 weeks,to 2,or 3 months to start working.

I took one medication that took about two months to work. Please ask your doctor about it. Antidepressants take time to work. Unfortunately,you have to be patient with antidepressants.

I hope that you will be feeling better soon. BF