Meg
I wish we were there too. Sending you some hugs.

Donna

hi Meg
 

I am sorry, Meg, you sound so lonely. you know, going inpatient is not just for emergencies... it can be the best thing in various situations. so, if you feel that is what would help you the most right now, then, please go ahead and do that. it is not bad, or wrong or "weak" to get the care you need. ok? :hug:

let us know what you decide to do. we are always here for you...

~ waves ~

I need someone :(

Dear Meg,

Hi. How are you?
M.

Dearest Mari,
Things lately have been absolutely wretched. I wake up every morning with the thought in my head that if I just end it today, then tomorrow won't even happen so I'll have no chance to be unhappy. Nothing makes me smile anymore, I just want to be able to go to school and enjoy life like everyone else I see is, but for some reason regardless of what happens I always end up feeling like thiings would be better/easier if I just didn't exist. Everyone aroundme is giving me that 'aww you have so much to live for' stuff and it all sounds so fake and it makes everything worse. is it so much to just want to genuinely smile for once? :'(

Dear Meg,

you sound terribly depressed. can you see a psychiatrist? i think it's worth considering meds. you don't have to keep feeling like this. there are a great many meds that could help you smile again. :)

:hug:

~ waves ~

meg, I wish you flet better. Depression is awful.
I am sorry that you are in this dark place, I agree meds help alot of people. Do you see a psych doc? or therapist?
bizi

hello megan
 

Hi, I hear your pain and confusion. No matter how old we are, all of us at some point experiece this kind of pain. I am new to the list and trobled over other issues, I just want you to know you are not alone, and no matter what happens there are those who would listen. It is ok to do that on this site and others will respond to I am sure. I am 58 f my name is ginnie i have a confused sign on my thread i will keep all of you in my prayers.

I havent seen a dr/tdoc/pdoc for months, I get to anxious/scared going to appointments. School is starting soon and I'd like to get back on the medications I was on when I left the hospital :[



I dont wanna go through the roulette wheel or doctors, I'm sick of feeling disrespected and like a virus :[


hello Ginnie, thank you and welcome to NT. I haven't been on here in some time but it is nice to know that NT continues to have new visitors who find help here.



I just don't know what to do. I just want a one stop shop to get everything all together because I cant be tossed around anymore :[

Dear Meg

it is hard to know what to say.

you want meds.

you don't want doctors.

i hear you. the problem is, you can't get the one you want without the other. can you just see the "doctors" as a gateway to meds and feeling better? i'm sorry you've had bad experiences with them. perhaps try a new person. i've had some good ones with whom i did not feel judged or disrespected.

i want you get help. i am hearing that you want help. you need a professional right now, even if you don't want one. please do what you need to do... see a doctor or go to a hospital, to get your meds, even if you'd prefer not to.

:hug::hug::hug:

~ waves ~