Hey There Meg
 

I do hope Disney gives you the space that you need from your every day troubles.

Do drink water regularly... yeah like everyone else says... but it's true. Can't be too careful with long days out in the Florida sun.

Above all, have lots of fun!

~ waves ~

im back temporarily are you all still here?

hi what is happening in your life these days?
How are you?
beth

i feel like im slowly drifting away from everyone and everything. like someone pushed me out to see in a boat and im getting so far i cant see or hear anyone.

i havent had a panic attack in a while so thats an upside...

but the depression is killing me.


:(

meg I wish I had the perfect answer, I know I have to keep busy with things that are passionate to me to keep the overwhelming emotions at bay.

Having a good friend that is supportive to just be there and never critiisize, a relative like your aunt that you can chat with a few times a week. A club, scrapbook your trip to look at the memories,
I wish our stay had been a bit longer to have seen you,

How is work, are you off school? We are here...so is summer, get a pool membership and makes lots of friends.
Hugs
di :hug:

ive been out of school for a while.


i realize i dont have alot of friends. its mike and mikes family. and whoever hes friends with.

his sisters wedding in july 10th and im going, my friend liz's baby shower is july 11th, followed by mikes godsons christening the 12th and my friend liz's wedding is aug 15th and im in it...hectic

i dont even know.

are you still working full time? any chance for friends there?
There are meet up groups on line that link people up with other people about different interests go to www.meetup.com
type in your area code or city and see what comes up. You would be so surprised at some of the groups.
Shoot you could even start a group if you wanted to.
thanks for checking in.
beth
I am sorry that you are depressed.....:(

I'm still working full time but the 1 girl I was mostly friends with transfered stores...I've hung out with another girl once or twice but not as often as I'd like.


There's a new girl who seems friendly enough and she wants to hang out. I dunno in the mood I've been in I can't stand being around other people.


:(

maybe you can meet her for a cup of coffee? something with out being committed for a long period of time...or even watch a movie?I would jump at the chance to have someone actually want to hang out with me.
Girl friends are great!
beth

I wish I knew what to do with my time. If I'm not at work (and even if I'm at work) and I'm not with Mike all I do is mope. I've gone over my friend Lizzys house lately (she's pregnant -due in sept, and is getting married in august, I don't know about all that but w/e) and that's fine and all but I need something more.

I can only sleep so much.

Once July 1st rolls around ill have health insurance I'm going to call and start my search for a tdoc. We all clearly know how the pdoc I had made me feel so I'm hoping a tdoc will help.

I'm also probabaly paranoid since I haven't had health insurance but within the past month I've noticed some stuff.

I go to the bathroom way more frequently, I'm always hungry even after I eat, and the other day I was in the car driving with mike (he was actually driving) but I got SO dizzy/lightheaded that I felt like I was going to pass out.

Not like panic attack dizzy but like heat stroke/exhaustion/low blood sugar pass out.


And I may be crazy but everything I have together makes me think I have type II diabeties.

I may be crazy but isn't that how it works. Once you don't have someone to tell you "Yes! You have this" or "no what are you talking about?" You just assume you have everything.

I just don't even know.