Dear Meg,
If you are overwhelmed right now and needing therapy you can wait to go to school the next semester.

Focus on your health.

M.

I am excited for school and i think its the only thing keeping me grounded.

at random parts of my day i feel an inner peace thinking about how I am lucky enough to be able to pursue my dream of learning everything i can about astrobiology.( today has been a very 'up' day)

This is good, Meg.
It if is working for you, then use school to keep yourself grounded and hopeful.
M.

Meg,

i am glad that you have up days.

Astrobiology is a fascinating (and challenging) field. Enjoy your studies.

~ waves ~

thank you for getting back with us.
school it is to help you feel more grounded and alive!
bizi:hug:

of course, i knew since I was feeling decent that checking in here would be helpful. The only thing that im semi-stressed on is trying to find a research team/research scientist that can help me network for astrobiology and things.


astrobiology and abiogenesis are 2 things that I know for a fact i could never get sick of learning about.i have neverrr been motivated or ecited about learning before and the fact i cant still be amazed by things I find out makes me feel like life is worth living. :)

a few more dayyss! Im like reallllly ready to just start now!


spare time w/ no plans is one of my BIGGEST issues. COME ONNN TUESSDAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

First I'd like to apologize for my absence. SoMany things have been going on I can barely keep track.

Here's a list of things to get out:
1) My state needs medicinal marijuana and soon.
2) My biological mother told me she's been talking to my biological dad...and she refuses to tell me anything about him
3) The season/weather is making my life a living hell. (I need somewhere warm/nice)
4) I need to get my medical life back in order (havent seen a dr in so long, dental/vision/meds)
5) School is going well but would be going better if I was somewhere ELSE.
6) I need a therapist but I don't trust many doctors.

and even now, It took me 25mins to even start writing this and now my brain is so overloaded I can't think of what else to write. :( I feel alone,and scared and lost and I don't know how to fix it and the only thing I've found that helps me focus/think/organize is smoking but I have no $ or anything to do that.I hate to say I'm dependent on it but honestly, it works better than any benzo I've been on and any ADHD medicine I take makes me fly off the WALL. I just want everything to SLOW DOWN. :(

I am very glad that school is going well for you!!!!!
that is fantastic!!!!!
take it as it comes one day at a time.
make to do lists then check things off.
you can't get every thing done...jsut try one thing...it feels so good to cross stuff off a list.
thanks for checking in.
((((HUGS))))
bizi

School is slowly sliding away because everything happening in my life is quickly pulling me under. my depression/anxiety/whatever my demon is, its winning and i HATE it.

Dear Meg,
I hope that you can find some doctors you trust.
When you have a team in place you can start getting better.
M.