Hey , megveg

I wrote you a private message because it's been a couple weeks since we talked and i did'nt know how to respond back. Theonly way i knew was for me to respond to your last message to me, that wouldhave been on the 11th page, andi did'nt know if you can to g back t that page and if you even would to see this message so.....maybe yuo can help me with this site it confuses the hell out of me.

So if you do not remember me i am the hypnotherapy girl. Well let me bring you up to date. I love it. Its still kinda of hard to hypnotize me, but theres such thing as a real small trans something that i felt a little. It expensive through. I am paying $1200 for 12 sessions or $125 a session. An hour half. I am on disability, but i think other health plans may cover it. I rented a 3 bedroom plus finshed basement and now and renting out the 3 rooms. It gives me $950-$1300 a month plus my $1000 D.B cheque. Don't think i am some hot on my but all day person. I am a full time student, and will be starting the voulenteering at the Alzheimers socity and the sicence centre in a few weeks.

K getting off topic like i seem to do alot, hypnotherapy is also most like a spirtual healing, and i'm no even in to all that. One thing i have learned so far about myself, and this was not brought up yet in hypno, but i have figured out that i am addicted to my mental health. I knew i was in a sence , well i knew alot( lol) but it's almost like i have another piece of the puzzle.

For me i diaignose myself with alot of things, but so have doctors. But i will hear something , ex: Autism people can't look u in the eye for a long time, i dignose myself with borderline autism. I'm crazy huh. I learned from a good dpctor friend of mine is that we all have a bit of paranoya, sitzo frinna, anxiety, so one. What i did was like always blow things out of extreme because i seen these things and heard about these things so i obssesses about them so much that the syptoms got worse to where i really starting liven the life of a person with mental disorders.

Have you ever heard of people being tricked into taking sugar pills when they think its there pills to hel their mental health, and nothing outof the ordinary in personality changed.

I still struggle alot, but things are always getting better especially the last couple days since i found out something knew about myself. It gets better than it gets worse, and it does that for a while but you have to push through that dizzy, nausa , rasing thought feeling and self talk yourself out of it. If like me you can't think of things to say good about yourself than write down 3 and just keep sayin them, it gets better, u know why?..is because theres proven psyical things in your body like little good cells that get released when praising yourself,going outin the sun, excersing why do you think they say prayer is so important not because of god but because it lets those good cells knock out the bad cells. Their not cells but you know what i mean i hope.

They say you should take 10minutes a day, in the morning they say is the best. But lay in your bed and just talk to yourself, not about " what i need to do or be" but self talking yuorself and praiseing yourself. I am not a religious person but i am starting to like prayer to MYSELF.

I have read a few of your thread and with all do respect you worry to much hun. So do i alot but it's gettin better.

Talk to you soon

I can't spell that well yet.