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Dear BJ,

Today is Wednesday.
You have two more days until Friday.
I am counting down with you.

Quote:

Originally Posted by Me BP? (Post 349074)

This is what I want for my "new" birthday:

I am disabled by my depression right now, but I am NOT my disability.
I will accept my disability as a blessing and a gift that allows me the opportunity to grow into the human being I am meant to become.
I will be here today, and present now.
I will not worry about tomorrow.
I will soak up today.
I will see all the beauty in the world, like a new child, through my new eyes.
My life will be full of beauty, and I will recognize that.
My new life will be full of love and I will pass that on.
My new life will be full of compassion, for myself and for others.
I will accept my mental illness as the catalyst, the mother and the origin of, my new and improved life.
And what I told her was I want ice cream.

I just hope my wishes come true.

You have a powerful b-day list :)

Good luck BJ. 'Sending lots of prayers and good vibes.
M.

:icecream::icecream::icecream:

My pdoc was very impressed with my list. I added a few more to it but don't remember what it was now. Now she had me write a letter to my mom and tell her how I'm doing. It was really hard because I wanted to just pick up the phone and call my mom but I can't.

The bus is picking me up early today. I didn't get picked up until 11:30 on Monday and didn't get home until almost 8PM. I had such a hard time with the anesthesia and they wouldn't let me go until I ate something and kept it down. She gave me something really strong for the headaches and I've been sleeping a lot. I still have a headache but I'm hoping that this will all be worth it. It's a good thing Hooper's a lap dog because she's watching over me. :) She doesn't leave my side and just cuddles and sleeps with her head on my leg.

I just can't wait to have my strawberry ice cream on Friday. :icecream:

your pdoc sounds amazing!
that was a long day.....
will you be done this week with your treatments?
What is happening friday?
bizi

Today's my last treatment Bizi. I'll be glad when it's over and I told my pdoc no more. I'm tired of the unrelenting headaches and feeling so tired. I sleep all day of the treatment and I'm freezing from the anesthesia all the time even though it's in the 80's. Maybe my mood is lifting but I can't feel it right now. It's so hard to even think straight. But I haven't cut in 3 days and for me that's progress. My pdoc told me that maybe once it's over and I'm feeling better physically my mood will lift. As soon as the fog clears she told me to get outside and walk Hooper but just go around the block where I don't get lost. I don't feel though it seems as "dark". I do feel that I can do this. I had a dream last night and my mom talked to me. I don't remember much but I do remember her saying "I'm proud of you honey". And I want to make her proud.

The "young" people bus is picking me up at 8AM today. It took a really long time for me to wake up Wednesday and I got sick again. I hope today I'll be able to eat cake at my "new" birthday party.

:D I'll be sitting right next to you on the bus. *grin Thinking of you and praying. :hug:

Good news, BJ.
You've been through quite a lot these last three weeks.
Feel good now that it is over and you have other things to look forward too.
Mari

9 treatments down and all I feel is like they've rearranged the furniture in my head. My head is splitting and I know I'm dehydrated but I can't keep anything down.

BJ,
Did you call the pdoc yet and let her know what is happening?
Maybe you need to go to the ER.

Mari

sorry I just caught up with this thread...yes I agree with mari, you may need medical intervention.
let us hear from you.
I am so glad that you are done with the treatments.
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi:hug: