[Brokenfriend]

Sometimes my mood is OK,even though my emotions are hurting a little. All of a sudden I feel like I'm going under,and I feel like I'm super depressed,or grieved,and hurting very bad on the inside,and in some sort of emotional down spiral that's hard to explain.

Then sometimes I think of most anything that is a problem,and I can't stand it. If the obsessions are up,I can't get my mind off certain things.

Then all of the sudden I feel better until the dread comes back.

Now my family wants me to transfer into social services suddenly.

The only people who talk to me are the mental health people in this state,and you all on NeuroTalk. I still have not received a counselor.

Thank you all for listening.

I don't know who else to talk to. I haven't called the emergency hotline in a week.

I'm worried that I'll lose the support that I have on here,because of what I'm going through.

I don't know what to do but write.

I don't know how long I'm going to live here.

I don't know anything about my future anymore.

I'm holding on to my faith as well as I can.

I feel like a burden to everyone sometimes.

I guess I'm going through a rougher time then usual.

I'm not getting any moral support or love from my Dad,or sister,for the first time in my life. My mother died about a year,and one half ago.

I feel so alone,and wonder why my family at the same time doesn't care any more. This weighs down on me. I can't help it.

I don't know how to deal with it.

I'm just seeking some love,and comfort from you all. That's all. BF

[Mari]

Dear Friend,
I'm sorry to hear about the loss of your mother fairly recently. That wound is probably effecting others in the family too.

Maybe the people providing services for you will figure out soon that you are in serious need of complete and comprehensive services. That is my prayer for you. Right now they seem to be dilly dallying with your case.

Sometimes, lots of sleep most nights and 20-30 minutes of exercise 5 days a week can help. Some people can find big improvement with just those two things.

Still, you need to get the professionals to be personally involved in your situation. Find ways to get them to care about fixing you.


Keep posting if it is helping.
I want to hear from you.
Mari

[Brokenfriend]

I'm trying. Thank you for your replies. Your a true friend. BF

[Mari]

Take care, Friend.

I'm going to sleep now.

See you tomorrow.

M.

[Brokenfriend]

Originally Posted by Mari

Take care, Friend.

I'm going to sleep now.

See you tomorrow.

M.

You have a nice rest. Thank you for comforting me. BF

[befuddled2]

BF,

You need faith to cope or in other words, hope to cope, so don't let go of that. Sometimes it is darkest before bright days. I went through a pretty dark time myself when all I had was the computer. My family won't have anything to do with me except for a sis across country I talk to that I've never met. It still hurts at times but it does get better. You may not see now how that will happen but with you but it will. The sun doesn't shine on the same dog's butt all the time after all. You are very strong to have all this on your shoulders whether you realize it or not. Please keep the faith and it will see you through. Pray when you feel like this.

befuddled2

[Brokenfriend]

Originally Posted by befuddled2

BF,

You need faith to cope or in other words, hope to cope, so don't let go of that. Sometimes it is darkest before bright days. I went through a pretty dark time myself when all I had was the computer. My family won't have anything to do with me except for a sis across country I talk to that I've never met. It still hurts at times but it does get better. You may not see now how that will happen but with you but it will. The sun doesn't shine on the same dog's butt all the time after all. You are very strong to have all this on your shoulders whether you realize it or not. Please keep the faith and it will see you through. Pray when you feel like this.

befuddled2

Thank you befuddled2. I'm trying to hold on to my faith,and trying to hold on. BF