My family members have their problems,but it hurts so bad to be rejected in the middle of mine. My dad said some bad things to me on the phone. My sister has been treating me wrong. They are going to stop supporting me. This is hurting me so much.

I started screaming today,because I feel so much pain. What they have said keeps going around,and around in my head. I feel dread,and all kinds of bad thoughts are returning that I use to have. I have not felt like this in 30 years,and my family support is lifting,and I'm being abandoned.

Either that,or there are secrets. My sister may be seeing if social services will take care of me. If this is so,I don't know,but it is killing me. I feel so much pain. I haven't felt like this before. It's torture.

I know the verses,and I know how to comfort,but all of what I know is failing me right now. I'm tired,and don't want to continue to go through this. My interests in life are fading,and I am totally stumped.

Social services still haven't provided me with a therapist. They have provided a NP to medicate me,but what they have given me is not affective.

This is the cry in my heart. BF

Dear Friend,

Sorry that this is hard times for you.

Have you tried the Seroquel? I heard that it helps people sleep at around that dose when you take it at night time.


Mari

I've tried it. I cannot determine what it does yet,but it seemed to have caused me to have a deep sleep one night,and I woke up ,and didn't know what was going on. I didn't know where I was,but did soon after. Stuff like that.

The anxiety is still hitting me hard about possibly being abandoned in the middle of my anxiety problems from my own family. My dad basically helped take care of me till 1999. My sister sort of took over. Now she has MS,and says she cannot afford to take care of me. I heard her in the background say,in aggravation,let someone else take care of him. I'm shocked at the way things are unfolding. BF

Dear Friend,

Check with the NP.
I think that the Seroquel has to be taken for several nights before you can tell how it is going to work for you.

When you get your anxiety under control with the help of meds, it will be easier to deal with your sister's meanness.

Really. Focus on the medications. They might be able to change your life for the better.

Mari

Mari I talked to her about this pain, anxiety,and mania spells that I have,and she said take another 0.25 Mg Xanax. I said that will have no affect. Then she said try Seroquel. She gave me some samples. I cannot feel it working on the anxiety pain/mania. I don't see her again until October. She gave me 12 pills.

It always seems like doctors,and nurses don't know what they are doing with anxiety patients. I've can say this because of all the mistakes they have done to me since the late 60's. I wouldn't wish high anxiety on any enemy. The whole process is to cruel. (Affliction,Doctors,and Diagnosis,cost,stigma)

BF

I can commiserate. When my mother was alive and well off she told me let the state take care of me. I have had nothing to do with my sister and her family for a few years. They are well off. She told me we were strangers and had nothing in common. I keep on telling myself that God gives us what we need not necessarily what we want.
You are torturing yourself. I hope the torture can stop. Have you tried klonopin and risperdal? They have helped me. I am being forced to change by my situation and to let go more. I had tried so hard in the first part of my life to achieve security but it was illusive. I couldn't have tried harder. Try to find ways to comfort yourself and keep the faith that things will work out the way they are supposed to
Bobby

Dear Friend,

You are on too low a dose for it to help with mania. And it doesn't help at all for mania if you take it 12 times over the course of a few months.
At that low dose it helps with sleep -- but only on the nights that you take it.

How long is you appointment with her?
What do you tell her?

Do you tell her that you have not been able to work?
Do you tell her what you do all day?
Did you tell her how many many years you have been in treatment for anxiety and how unsuccessful this treatment has been?

What's wrong with her? Is she listening? Are you both talking and listening to each other?

Get an appointment with her supervising MD/ Psychiatrist.
NPs cannot write scripts unless under the direct supervision of an MD.

Maybe you need to go to emergency services. Perhaps they have a comprehensive team that will work with you.

Mari

Mari's right, you need proper meds to help you with your anxiety. I'm thinking of you Friend

I can't give you any advice on the meds, etc BF, but I do want you to know that I am keeping you in my prayers. I really feel sad for your situation and just wanted you to know that I care.

{{{{{ Brokenfriend}}}}}

I've tried the Klonopin,and it didn't seem to help,but I haven't tried the risperdal. Is risperdal like xanax?

My Faith was a little shaken,but I still have it. Thanks for the reply. BF