I sure do hate this cycle crud. I hit depression again. Why do I feel so weak and dumb? I never, NEVER, think that of anyone going through a major depression. I always feel like they have no choice to feel that way and I just want to help them through the pain until it passes.

But I am so hard on myself. I know this. I just can't seem to change my self view. grrrrrrr.

Wes is insta better. Lamictal saves the day again. Now we're all on it. It's like he's been lifted up or something miraculous occurred. He's so even. And last week I was ready to send him to juvie or back to intreatment. sigh. Lord bless the right meds. That makes me feel lots better.

I have been sick for 2 months now and that might be part of the blues. I am also doing the girl thing and that is a major part of the problem. I just wish I could get my brain to stop. sigh.

I gotta get my little one to the doc. His tummy hurts again. (My little one is 5 ft 9 in and 210. Not so little anymore, but he is just 13. )

Thanks for the vent. I know I just have to wait this out, but it helps to just say that things suck right now.

Love you guys so much.
Erebear

I am glad Wes is doing better, Lamictal is a wonder drug for sure.

Sorry you are feeling the depression and the blues and everything sucks, I sure know those feelings, as we all do at times.

Chin up, keep venting it does help. Take it a minute at a time.

This time of year is stressful too with the Holidays. Being sick can cause depression too, don't be so hard on yourself, take time for you and get some R & R.

Hang in there, lots of big bear Hugs, Nikko

Dear Bear,
So glad to hear from you....
Now I want you to quit picking on yourself!
REmember it is chemical...WE can't help this can we.
Now I want you to pleae be nicer...take warm bathes ..drink hot tea...have a hot toddie if you like or maybe some egg nog...I just picked some up at the store tonight...I think I have a tad bit of rum left too!
I'll fix one for you too...OK?
love you
bizi
(((((HUGS)))))

Yes, please have a drink for me. I have been craving one lately. Do they make sugarless booze? LOL.

I was short on B12. Doc gave me a shot this morning and not a panic attack or a blue moment since. Got anti biotics for a sinus infection and My Little man has a healthy and whole gallbladder. So not everything sucks.

One little vitamin deficiency and everything goes to heck in a pretty little hand basket.

She (my doc) kinda got in my face today. She's not one for inuendo. When I told her I didn't know if I was sick or depressed, she looks at me funny and says "You have fibromyalgia. Of course you hurt." Like duh.

I didn't know that I had fibromyalgia. I thought we "might" be "looking in that direction". Now its definate along with chronic fatigue and pernicious anemia. She doesn't like the bipolar definition and thinks it mostly depression but understands that rage is another form of mania and won't go against the pdoc. Mainly cause she knows I won't give in on the lamictal.

Gees.....listen to me.

I gotto get my tired, hurt, bloodless, moody butt of the net and run over to my kids doctors for a note for school.

I just don't like hearing that fibromyalgia thing. It feels so final. And untreatable. Can't it just be the flu like everybody else? (But I didn't like hearing bipolar either. But at least there are meds that work for that!)

No wonder you don't feel well....
(((HUGS)))
bizi

Dear Bear,
The new dx doesn't sound good. But on the other hand with a dx, at least you know what you are dealing with.

It that true that we still have no treatment for Fibro? That stinks.
I remember that the only treatment for CF is sleep, sleep, sleep, vits, low activity, mild exercise. Or something like that. Is that what you remember? Because I am not "over" mine yet.....still waiting for that.

That is good that the B12 helped you.

Mari

Bear,

I hope Friday brings you an out of dumps day for you.

Hugs to you,
befuddled2

Dear Bear,
Are you getting enough sleep?

I don't mean to be obnoxious --- I don't get near enough sleep.

I aim for it. Does that count? Each night I try harder

Mari

Dear Bear,

Maybe you don't have fibromyalgia. The symptoms are indefinite. Maybe you have arthritis. Maybe you have been too physical lately. The point I am making is that just because a therapist pronounces a diagnosis doesn't mean that he is right. If you think of fibromyalgia as a "sentence", keep the thought in the back of your mind that you may not actually have it.

On the other hand, a diagnosis of fibromyalgia will make it easier on your doctor's mind to prescribe the narcotic meds that fibromyalgia requires. Ditto for a diagnosis of CFID and CNS stimulants.

So, it seems that you are well set to have your needs attended to by your medical professionals. Life sucks in general, so gather ye rosebuds while ye may.

{{{{Bear}}}}

I hope today brings a better day for you. I know the diagnosis of fibro might seem daunting but at least you have some idea why you feel the way you do.

Please don't be so hard on yourself. We all have these moments and it's hard to get out but you can do it.

{{{{{Hugs}}}}}