This is the 2nd time this week, I had to call 911 due to her falling from drinking.
Tonight they came and checked her out, then I gave her something to eat, her meds, soda, got her on the commode and she fell off it hit her head on the bedstand, then I tried to get her up and she hit her head on the side of the bed, so I had to call back 911, she is in route to the hospital.

I am going to have to get her in someplace for depression/detox after tomorrow. This can't keep happening.

I knew the crew from my assault, they are real nice, asked if I was ok, and what I was going to do tonight, they said to get some rest. They know from my assault that I am BP and have a plate and screws in my neck and not strong enough to lift my mom.

So, here I am alone with my dogs, having a soda, just thinking, I am so tired of so much.

Sorry, had to vent. Love and Hugs, Nikko

{{{Nikko}}}

I hope things will turn for the better with your mom.

befuddled2

Sending you some hugs Nikko

Hoping tomorrow is brighter.

Donna

OHHHH NIKKO!

all I can say is that you are such a good daughter, can care taker to your mom.
You have been so patient with her...have put up with alot as well...
it will be so nice to see how your mom is after detox....
hugs to you dear
((((HUGS)))
bizi
hoping that you can really rest well tonight....

(((((((((( Nikko ))))))))))

sounds like you could use some Rainbow Roses about now...

i think of you every day. i pray things will take a positive turn. hold on.

love and huggs and bestest wishes

~ waves ~

p.s. i will have ADSL in a few weeks.

here i go again. I am so happy you have your beloved animals. I don't think you are doing your mother a service by keeping her with you. She loves you dearly and you might be committing a sin by slowly killing yourself being her caretaker. She would be so much safer in a home...Her soul would be so much safer if you allowed yourself a life. You are martrying(sp) yourself and it isn't working. You need to work on your self esteem...You are finally free of your husband...you need to be free of your mother's demands and just be a source of love for her. You could benefit so much by playing more with your beloved companions and start having the time to make new friends and focus on your own needs. I went through such a depression when my alienated mother died and I felt the bottom of my world fall out...I no longer had somebody to take care of and it was so painful for me to grasp the reality that I had never taken care of myself nor had I ever had anybody take care of me. The latter was probably the most painful of the emotions and the one I had been dodging all my life. Shortly there after I found a sick starling and rescued him. I called him Little Jude. He brought so much joy into my life.
He died to the year my mother died. It was so weird. Then I finally began to start trying to take care of myself. It started out being the loneliest process of my life.
Bobby

Hi Nikko, I am a new kid on the block. Not that new.. half a century old, actually.

You are doing a great job for your mom. Sorry to hear that she had a relapse.

If I might suggest something, as a person who's been there. Support you are giving is very important but think of ways to balance it with responsibility that your mom needs to take. Something of a wake up call --with a lots of support and motivation. It worked for me. Let's hope it will work for your mom.

In my case, when I "woke up" I found that I am biopolar. Alcoholism was part of the sickness. The good news is that I know who I am and hopefuly what to do.

Wishing you the best.

Newmsutton

Hi and lots of Thanks,,,,,,I don't have my printer set up to put a picture on the computer, plus I am in the picture and I am already incognito here for my the assault on me by my husband.

I guess I can try to get my printer working, and then send it to anyone that wants to see via email.

Welcome Newsmutton I am doing my best, so far so good.
I have to call her PCP tomorrow, about a new anti-depressant and a follow up and hopefully some PT for her extreme arthritis. I start my PT on Thursday for my spinal cord problems.

I often wonder if my mom is BP II like me and doesn't know it. Yet she doesn't show any real signs. She show's more of depression.

Today I am going to color her hair, and get her in the shower, she will feel better, tomorrow maybe she will want to get out and get a hair cut.

I am not new to alcohlics, my dad was one and died at 48. In 1982, I still see it all in my mind. I am already dealing with PTSD and this is just adding to it.

Slept in today, stayed up past my normal bed time, plus woke up with a headache, I think that is stress. I was going to go out last night, but just didn't have the energy, in fact I want to go out today, but I doubt I will, I don't know why.

Hugs, Nikko