Talk about female reproductive problems.











Well if you didn't know already, I have an ovarian mass, I forsee them removing the ovary since the health dept nurse seemed to think that was the way the dr would lean, and she mentioned uterine lining ablation, which is where they essentially burn off the uterine lining because of uncontrolled bleeding which I thought was preimenapause but it might not be. They are set to biopsy it the 6th and I was really freaking out about this last week.

I decided to start the buspar and risk it. OMG it is really amazing stuff! I like how it's keeping me calm, I am up to 20 mgs a day now, taking 12.5 mg in the AM and 7.5 mg in the afternoon. I am slpwly weaning down off the lorazepam and the biggest thing I needed that drug for was to combat the physical symptoms of anxiety, which the buspar is preventing from happening. I am still getting anxious, like yesterday I kinda had a PSTD attack that tried to happen when I saw two motorcycles riding side by side which is what Jack and I did that fateful day, and normally that sets me off shaking and my stomach drops and I feel like curling up into a ball.

Well yesterday I was able to just go, "No, no, no, go away" and it did! Deep breathing the whole time of course, but not hyperventilating. I am very pleased with the Buspar so far, it's really working wonders for me for both PSTD (which is is used to treat in addition to the anti-anxiety effects) and my out of control anxiety. I still feel anxious but not having the physical symptoms which is GREAT! I can will the anxiety away so much better now. I went three days with no lorazepam and had to take 1/2 of one Sunday to help with stomach twitchieness I attribute to withdrawal. So I will keep working the lorazepam that way for awhile then go down to 1/4 tablet (of a 1 mg tablet) and see how it goes.

I am feeling a lot better and just had to post to let you all know since I was freaking out the last post I made. Doing a LOT better now, if only I can get through the next phases of my 'treatment' for this ovarian mass okay I'll be fine. I am gonna be getting a depopravara (however you spell it) shot when I go in the 6th for the biopsy to make sure I don't end up pregnant and hopefully it will help with the bleeding problems. I am having pain in my sides and not sure if it's because I know now that something is up on that right side and the left is ovulating or what, but it's real pain, sharp twinges...usually when I bend over so I am trying to take it easy. The 6th can't be done and over with soon enough for me...

Pam

Not sure how big your cyst mass is. But I can totally tell you when that is gone it will feel lots better. That is the thing they took out for me when I had my gallbladder out. I had been living with it for over 2 years. It started really small and got bigger and very painful for me. And they thought I was crazy,
it was supposedly still small. Until it was out, and then the OBGYN said, it was
considered bigger than they wanted to leave in. She sure made me feel good
about my pushing to have it out.

I'm so glad you are going to get this out. I'm sending hugs, and thoughts to
you. And glad the burspars, oops can't spell it. Heehee is working.

Donna

Thanks Donna! I hope to get it out ASAP, no clue on time frame since I have not been referred to the dr yet, but that should happen on the 6th. I can't wait to get it OVER with...

I hope they can get this out quick for you Pam and everything turns out okay. You definitely don't need any more on your plate right now.

Thanks BJ, How are you doing? Things going better?

Edited to add: Oh BJ, I am so sorry you're going through so much pain, I just read the whole Dear BJ thread and posted, I haven't been able to because of my emotional state as of late before the buspar, but I really want you to know I admire you hun. Thank you for trying to offer me comfort, that's so kind of you.

Dear pammie,
I don't understand about the depoprevara shot?
why risk that?
HOrmones can effect us.
I contribute my first episode with the shot that I had, it made me manic.
now that is jsut me but I would really think hard before having that shot.
jsut my opinion, I will never take hormones..
beth

ps I am so happy to hear that you like the buspar!!!!!!!!

I am so glad that you are having a better day, It sounds great about the Buspar, I never took it or knew much about ti. I have not had money for my Lexapro for anxiety/panic for a month now and really need something to take the edge off.

I had the uterine ablation several yars ago for the same reason. I had it done as a D&C under versed. Never had ovarian problems. After that procedure I did take the depo provera shots even though I had my tubes tied.

I hope that everything is much improved after they tinker around and tune ya up.
Hugs
di

One thing I am worried about is the Depo shot messing with my head emotionally. Did you find it was okay or were you triggered into depression and increased anxiety with the depo shot? I am afraid that many years down the road ovarian cysts will develop on my remaining ovary if I let them tie the tube. I don't know quite what to do, I wish I knew one way or another if I was truly in perimenapause or not.

Thank you for the reply Di, and thanks for the hugs. Thank you too Beth!

Pam,
Did a MD give you advice about your options?
It seems that you should not have to figure this out on your own.

M.

No it was a Nurse or Nurse Practitioner, not sure which, I'll have to ask. Anyway once they do the biopsy I will be referred to the doctor (gyn) and she will be able to give me a better idea of what I can do, though I am leaning towards letting them give me some form of birth control, I just don't know what yet. I really do not know what to think about the cyst, and if they will be able to remove it and save the ovary, I don't know. They probably will try but it might be better to remove it so it doesn't come back.