If you still need advice I have been in chronic pain for 32 yrs just ask.

After more than 20 years of severe pain, I have taken enough meds to choke a horse. While the never-ending pain drags depression around behind it, taking enough medication to knock you out makes you wonder why you were ever born!!! I just went through that. It wasn't until I got angry since I have no life (except in my dreams) that I began tossing some of the pills away...with the doc's help...keeping the most necessary ones to survive the pain. Guess I'll get back to the depression from pain when I get over being angry. It's just a merry-go-round.

sally

Just saw this thread bumped up and wanted to post and thank everyone for the help and support. Over the past few months I have done well and had a positive attitude and was cheerful. But with the cold I am feeling worse and I now am depressed and the depression is just worsening.

I feel so alone and deserted. I live in my room for the most part. I have no life, I do next to nothing and I am always crying. I feel like I just lay in bed and rot. All I know is pain, I can barely walk or do anything. What is there to live for?! I mean, I am not suicidal at all, it is just the pain wearing on me. I feel lifeless.

By the way, yes- I did tell the friend what I am going through. She apologized profusely and we are even better friends at this time.

I have been crying just trying to write this, it is just so difficult to live anymore. I have been trying to go on with life and was doing fairly well with it, but it is now a different story.

Thanks for listening.

There is a book that teaches meditative and stress management for chronic health issues called "Full Catastrophe Living" by Jon Kabat-Zin. The author uses a Buddhist type philosophy in a program that was tested in a medical facility. The Buddhists claim that it is not pain that causes suffering, but attachment to pain that causes suffering. I was reading it when I got my second whiplash, and it helped me tremendously.

I also find that creating meaning, and getting something positive out of negative situations is important. The last time I had an episode with my back, I sold my Chiropractor on a stress management class for his patients. After my first whiplash I had a seizure in my car, I found out that mobility impaired transit needed quality control, and put myself in charge of it.

May you find peace within yourself,

Janet Kaye

I want my ans taken out and cannot find anyone to do it.
Can you tell me who can help.

Well, a Neurosurgeon put my stimulator in and my Orthosurgeon took it out, when he did my 7th back surgery. I would have went to him in the first place, if my husband had of been well, but he had brain and lung cancer. Thats why I went to a surgeon that lived closer to my home. I never wanted the Spinal stim anyway, because it contained metel wires. I was in misery from day 1 and lived with it for almost 1 year.

The only advice I can give, is you will just have to find a surgeon that is willing to take it out in the first place. The one that took mine out, was already my regular surgeon. It wasn't so simple tho. He ordered a Discogram that just put me in misery showing him I already needed another surgery. I was determined to get up the same day of surgery and do my best the fight this pain. It has worked pretty good for me this way. I do have to keep a positive attiude. I'm not saying this would work for everybody, but it has worked good for me. I hope the best of luck for you!
Fancylady

I have been in monster pain for 2 years---Seen tons of docs--specialist surgeons etc-----This one thought I could have this surgery on my back to relieve some of the pain I get in my lower back and legs---Appointment today and total disappointment------He says my spine is healthier than his-----He could make it worse that's about it-------------They started with Autoimmune with me---MS------maybe Lupus---Etc----Now the first explanation that comes outta the surgeons mouth looking at my records was MS--------I am so worried that they are just going to let me suffer------I can not even walk the pain is so great--

I just can't see living like this forever-----To some docs----The Pain meds are the worst---Because of addiction----My take is---Hey I was a Cop--In great shape played sports---Ran for miles--Lifted weights etc-----Get me outta pain--or lessen it and the we should worry about addiction------People who don't feel the pain-----And fell what works and doesn't don't care------------Sorry for the long pity poem------To the person in pain for 32 years may God Bless you---I could not do that------

Bless all who posted here..

I just want to say, I understand what you are saying. Have you ever went to a pain doctor? A good one might help you. There Is a medical name for them and I can't spell it. Help me out here gals! May God Bless You, and know others believe what you are saying.
Fancy

This my first post to this site, my shrink said speaking to others in chronic pain might help me vent. Right now it just makes me sad and sitting here is killing me. Been very physical all my life until my work injury, never really had depression, panick attacks the last year + has truly been hell, a very lonely place to be. I dont have the luxury of pain killers due to IBS they dont help the pain and make me horribly ill. My hand surgeon is trying sleeping pills to see if I can just get a few hours of restful sleep. When you start feeling like ending your life you need to speak with a professional...right more doctors. Try paraffin baths for your feet, it is relaxing... might help. I was a lady trucker, got a really bad truck... caused t7-t11 bulging disc 3/4, 4/5 5/s1 herniations with tare... bilateral carpel tunnel with triggering middle and long fingers. The fifth surger stopped the triggering but really ****** off the nerve now i scream just brushing up against it. My body is now rejecting all forms of treatment, (having reactions to the injections and soft tissue infections) We are starting the holistic care now, the accupuncture helps but not for long, inversion chair helps but cant do it for long before my eyeballs hurt. Trying since september to get therapy approved for aquatic core strengthening and massage. The doc said retraining but I cant sit and cant grip dont know what to retrain for. Any ideas let me know!

HUGSSSSSSSSSSSS to you great BIGGG HUGSSSSSSSS

I live with pain often, I work full time at fast paced on my feet job, I suffer with memory recall issues, balance issues, and stiffness, pain, and more pain. I am undxed!!

I guess positive attitude when you can, let the tears out when you feel them, and making sure you are taking good care of YOU! Treating yourself, if stuck in bed, get some great books to read!! think of the things you still CAN do...less about what you cant.

either way I understand the hard parts..and wanted mainly to give you HUGSSSSSSSSS,sarah