[BJ]

One year ago today you left this earth to be with God. It was way too soon mom. I know you were lonely for dad but I guess I never realized how much.

My heart is heavy with grief, loneliness and guilt. I’ll never see your smiling face again, only pictures and memories. We shared a lot together and I’d do anything to have things they way they were. I didn’t know how sick you were or else I would have stayed that day. Maybe I could have gotten you to the hospital sooner, but I didn’t know, no one knew your heart would give out that day. A heart that was filled with love, laughter and joy. You were always there for me with a hug, a smile, good food or just being a mom. But I feel that I let you down that day. I’d do anything to feel you again, to touch you, but it’s not to be.

Thank you for being my mom and, more importantly, my friend. I miss you terribly.