Hi Kelly~ I read this thread when you first posted it and felt the need to revisit. I usually pass the Grief Forum by; maybe b/c if I don't stop and read, well~ then I don't have to confront my feelings.

You already know that I lost both my parents w/in 3 1/2 yrs, w/Mom just last June. We did so much together. She was my shopping buddy, my phone buddy and just amazing in so many ways. My DH considered her his Mom too.

I can't believe how much I still miss her. Time was supposed to fix that, right? I miss my Dad too, but when he passed, we still had Mom, and she held us together *5 kids and families*

I'm not angry, just still feel so much sadness w/o her.

Guess I just needed to vent that.

And, Kelly~ I know how much you have lost; and you always show so much strength and poise. I'm sure it hasn't been an easy ride for you either. Thanks for listening.

DM

I think about my Mom, Dad, husband (and now my sister ) every day. Not a day goes by that I don't miss them. My parents were elderly and had full, happy lives. While I still miss them terribly I guess I came to terms with their death more than I did with my husband and sister. They were both young - in the prime of their lives. I just don't understand.

I guess my faith that I will see them again in Heaven keeps me going. Some days are harder than others - I don't know why. Some days I can look at pictures and remember the things we all used to do and be OK and others I just sob over the fact that they are not here with me.

I'm so sorry for your losses even though with time the pain is dulled it's never gone. Like you, I'm over the "angry" stage - I just feel the sadness of having so many taken from me. But, I guess that just means we have compassionate hearts. Take care, DM, and know that I can relate very much to what you're feeling.

Joyce, Kelly and Daisy,

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I sometimes feel I am the only one that can't move forward from my grief. I know all about the spurts and memories that trigger my uncontrollable emotions. I see a very nice Christian therapist and feel it helps some but when things keep coming at you, it does make it more difficult to move on. Or at least, it seems that way for me.

I do try to be more aware in my everyday things that we never know what someone else is going through and may need whatever little kindness I can give them even if its in a store check out line. I try to not wear my heart on my sleeve but when your heart is hurting so very bad, it does get much more difficult to wear the "I am just fine" mask. I know at some point, I have to go out of my house.

I am going to look at the grief website mentioned above.

Gamgam,

I don't know how recent your loss is but I hope that it gets a little easier for you. I know how it feels to try and always put on the "happy face" for others. Sometimes it's just too hard.

I hope you like the website - it takes a little while to get used to it and maneuver around...I went to it the other day - first time in many months - and it had changed quite a bit but was still good. I made a lot of wonderful friends there. They have a message board and a chat room similar to this site.

Good luck to you...hang in there and just take it a day at a time.