hang in there, Anne.



we love you.

Anne, sorry ... no cute graphics (as usual), but sending healing hugs across the ocean.

I hope as time progresses, that each day becomes a little easier for you to cope with all the hurt and losses you have suffered. No to mention all the challenges you've been through with your health.

Give little Wm's cheeks a pinch for me, K?

Forgive me if I repeat myself here, but I thought I'd update you all seing that you've been kind enough to check and see how I was managing.

This past month has been rather difficult for me, with the anniversary of my mother's death in May, the anniversary of my father's death this week, and the anniversary of the death of my first child.

Also last month my brother and a close friend passed away. I have on going issues with my only sister who seems to make it her whole life's ambition to cause me as much emotional pain as possible, and on top of all this I've had my DH's health to worry about.

I had major bowel surgery last September for cancer and I have to go see a brand new surgeon (we moved states) for a follow up colonoscopy on July 1st. I'm starting to get scared about that, and I've already put the appointment off once. I'm not sure that I want to know the verdict any more. I'm getting to the stage where I'd rather not know, because I just do not want to go through any more surgery! I think if they told me it had come back, I'd simply just back away and let Jesus take me home, or let "nature" take it's course, however your thoughs on that may be.

I lost my nose to cancer in January but I had the most fantastic surgeon, and you would never know by looking at me, unless you were told about the surgery. It's almost time for my 6 month check up for that too. Some people get all the luck, don't they?

On top of all that there's been stuff happening that I haven't bothered anyone here on the site with, but Gee Wizz......sometimes I wonder what I ever did to deserve all this "carp".

Thank you one and all for caring! I don't know what I'd do with out you now that we have met! You just happen to be the most wonderful, the most caring group I've ever met!

Anne, you have been through so much. I just shake my head and wonder how you have been able to endure all the burdens placed on your little shoulders. It's just been one thing after another for months and months.

I'm confident that I speak for all of us here at NT, that we love you right back! You are very frequently the first to welcome a newby and post a thread where we can all see it. You and the rest of the official welcomers and moderators do a fantastic job when it comes to drawing others in.

I hope you will be able to cope with your upcoming colonoscopy. We depend on you too much for you to take your own health anything less than very seriously! Please please please follow through this time!!!

Sending hugs across the ocean. Any news on when you'll be getting a new computer???

(((Anne))) I'm sorry you have so much on your plate right now...life doesn't seem fair at times.
Have you read Rabbi Kushners book, When Bad Things Happen to Good People?

Or Frederick Buechners book, The Longing for Home...He wrote "The world can be kind, and it can be cruel. It can be beautiful, and it can be appalling. It can give us good reason to hope and good reason to give up all hope. It can strengthen our faith in a loving God, and it can decimate our faith. In our lives in the world, the temptation is always to go where the world takes us, to drift with whatever current happens to be running the strongest."

And I conclude that life isn't fair. Good people suffer and bad people prosper. It rains on the just and the unjust.

But I believe in hope..."that feathered thing" that sits in our soul and never stops singing.

And I give thanks for new friends like you who remind me to "keep on, keeping on" by her words of support and friendship.

Look up Anne, there are many arms reaching down for you.

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Originally Posted by Alffe (((Anne))) I'm sorry you have so much on your plate right now

I totally agree with Alffe.

Check your mail -- sending you a tiny plate so you don't have so much to deal with.

((Koala)) You have had an awful lot going on.

I'm so sorry about your surgeries! Please don't put off that colonoscopy any longer, though. I have to admit, I don't blame you for worrying before you go. I have one every fall because of my ulcerative colitis and each time I hope and pray they won't find any more cell changes. But still, don't put it off, please.

Hugs and love.

Anne, I know what you mean... and I completely understand.

time, patience, and allowing yourself to properly grieve, plus... a bit of *forcing* yourself to take CARE of yourself is all necessary...

Oh Anne . I feel for you. I really do. I have never visited this area of NT before because I just have not been able to deal with the death of my mom AT ALL . I am constantly on the verge of tears; if I even think about her I start to cry. I've had one lousy year too. I just wish I knew where to begin to get past all of this garbage. I'm not on speaking terms with God either . I hope you find your way soon, .

i hope i've spelt that right. don't know what to write just wanted to send a hug and a smile to let you know we're all here for you..