It has been almost a year sence my aunt ODed on meds and died. I don't know what i will/might do on that day.

Squirrel, I'm so sorry about your dear Aunt.

There are many here who have suffered similar devastating losses. I know you will find comfort here if you choose to stay. We have a very supportive community.

Many who are supposed to have OD'd on meds did so accidentally, for example, trying to get a night's sleep after developing tolerance to sleeping meds, so that they took more than they should. If you know that this was not the case with your aunt, for example if she left a note, then what you might do on that day is remember the good times if you can. Otherwise, think on the pain this has caused you and do NOT do the same. billie bluecat

Hi, Im new to this site and your was the first post i read. Im sorry for your loss i understand the pain you are feeling. 4 mnths ago yesterday {nov 6th} my big brother hung himself. The pain is excruciating and time does numb the torment but time wont make the pain disappear. find peace in the focus of the wonderful memories of the love you had with her. and know that she lives in every breath u take she is the wind the air and the energy that is all around you

today
i walk and i wonder how could it be
that tomorrow will come and i will be free
i will wander the street of this confused mind
i will make good decisions and have a clear mind
nothing ever will break me
it may have fractured its true
i just need to look forward and lean on you
my prayers will be said
and i will be strong in my faith
that god has a plan and
and in his arms sean is safe
ill smile and remember all f the movies that play in my mind
and hold you dear every moment in time
to move and heal is not a rejection
not in anyway is a careless reflection
just the road i have to take
not in any way a mistake
so i breath in a sigh of releif
as i let go of some of this heavy grief
for your soul is one that danced in the sun
and your smile and i are forever one
i love you Sean

I'm so sorry about your Aunt.... Those anniversary dates are really hard to go through Squirrel, they eventually will get easier but it takes lots of time. We always went "away" on the date of our son killing himself..trying I guess to make a better memory of it..it helped some.
Please know that you aren't alone..this is a wonderful place to find support and to talk about what you are feeling.

An anniversary of a loved one passing is not an easy day to forget. One year is the worst! Two years is also tough. That person may be gone, but thier spirit and memory live on.
It is not a day to wallow in sorrow, but a day to remember them and the good times you shared with them. How would THEY want to be remembered? Were your good times spend picnicing at the park? Camp fires? Watching football? Go do it and honor them!

My cousin was in a fatal and gruesome accident on valentines day 4 years ago leaving behind a wife and small child. He was only 32yo. His passing saddened many people, however his memory lives on thru the countless lives he touched. With much support and professional help his parents and wife have managed to function again and move on in thier life. Feb 14 is still a tough day!

Sometimes you get that feeling you were watched, had a close call with something or feel a presence. You can only wonder if it was someones spirit.

Death dates are a hard day to deal with. Remember that ur actions have consequences also. Don't do anything foolish. U r not an island.

hello out there. My name is Abbey. I'm new to this forum and feel very nervous and almost feel like I dont know what to say. I joined the forum in hopes to find a community that understands what it's like to be a survivor of suicide. So, I guess this will be my formal introduction.

hello Abbey and welcome to NeuroTalk

We have a special forum here, called Survivors of Suicide, where you will find much understanding and support
http://neurotalk.psychcentral.com/forum29.html

I am so thankful you found our community and hope you will be strengthened and encouraged here

I am so sorry to hear about your dear aunt!