That is a very beautiful poem Visitor. I am not a lover of poetry, but that poem really touched me. I hope your life will become brighter and you find the courage to crack your shell. I too hide myself from the world, not because of my disease, but have always been that way. I don't like being like that, wish I was more open, but just don't know how to do it. My family only knows the real me, thankfully I have them in my life. Take Care Visitor. PS You sound like a person very worth knowing, I am sure many would love to see the real you.