It Hurts

It hurts because,
You were a special friend,
It hurts because,
Your life has come to an end.
It hurts because,
It was never meant to be,
It hurts because,
You always meant so much to me.
It hurts because,
I could always feel your pain,
It hurts because,
I know I'll never see you again.
It hurts because,
I knew what you were going through,
It hurts because,
I couldn't reach out and comfort you.
It hurts because,
I couldn't help you find the way,
It hurts because,
I couldn't find the right words to say.
It hurts because,
You really touched my heart,
It hurts because,
It has now been torn apart.
It hurts because,
We can't share secrets anymore,
It hurts because,
It won't be like it was before.
It hurts because,
You were too young to die,
It hurts because,
I never got the chance to say goodbye...

{©2008 Jan B.}

~Jaime~

Jaime, may I copy and paste this in the Artistic Expressions sticky at the top of the Survivors of Suicide forum? It's very appropriate..thank you!

Yes, you can do that. It is about a friend who took their own life, but lived too far away for me to be there for her.

I'm so sorry about your friend. thanks for letting me copy it. It really is very expressive and how survivors feel.

And Happy Belated Birthday! Hope you did something fun!

Another poem on the same subject, I wrote a few years ago...

I'll Never Understand

When I found you crying,
I didn't know what to do,
I held you close,
And tried so hard to comfort you.
But it wasn't enough,
I could never take away your pain,
Erase the past,
Or convince you to try again.
If only I had been there,
If I had known right from the start,
Maybe I could have helped,
But could I have prevented a broken heart?
You've changed so much,
Nothing would ever be the same,
It tore me apart,
To see you taking all the blame.
Your dreams were shattered,
And your spirit had been broken too,
More than you could take,
But I didn't know what you would do.
So I was unprepared,
For the shock that awaited me,
I didn't understand,
When you said you would soon be free.
I found you that morning,
Lying so peacefully on your bed,
I had this strange feeling,
I knew inside that you were dead.
I wanted to touch you,
But this inner fear kept me away,
I wept so hard,
For the dear friend I lost that day.
A bottle of pills,
Took away your life and your pain.
But it hurt so much,
Knowing I would never see you again.
Just why you gave in,
I'll never really understand,
Why didn't you fight,
Why didn't you reach out for my hand?
I wanted to help,
I wanted to be more than just a friend,
But it's too late now,
And it's so hard to believe it's the end.
I will never forget you,
You will be forever in my heart,
A sad and fragile soul,
A beautiful life that has been torn apart....
{©2004 Jan B.}

Thanks for the Birthday wishes. If I do anything 'fun' these days, I suffer for it the next day! lol No, it was a nice day, went out for a meal with friends.

You have a lot of talent Jamie...you know the Artistic Expression sticky is for anyone to share their poetry, art work..etc. Feel free to contribute anytime. I'm assuming I can "steal" this one too. *grin