[dewcole]

ok,I will just jump in. I am in trouble...I am walking that fine line between I might be ok, and the one where I know I won't.I've been fighting depression for over 30 yrs. Now i;m 52, divorced, 3grown kids with kids of thier own. Right now I live in my mom and dad's house with my 2 older sisters. My parents passed in 2010. My older sis is paying for my doc visits and $4.00 meds at Wal-Mart. She bought my effexor at first. Now she can't, and I have been in a downward spiral since. I just got dx with MG about 2 weeks ago. This has bben the reason I have been unable to work for the last five years. I didn't know it at the time. I have tried to find resources to help pay for my meds, but so far I haven't had any luck..haha..luck huh?
I am in the process of trying for my disability appeal, so I have no money, or medical insurance. I just want to give up. This has been a very long and unhappy chunk of time in my life. I don't even think anybody would come to my funeral. I'm so sad and lost. My sisters don't understand how they hurt me with their silence and their showing me that they don't need me. I don't want to go back in that hole. I'm not strong enough anymore. Why can't people see when you're that close to the edge..Or do they and then just don't care. I thought things would change after our parents passed within 4 months of each other. But I still feel like I am not significant.