[SDFencer]

OK, so I have had all these problems with my brain. I can't accept the new me who can't do things I used to, stairs are becoming more difficult daily.

The thing that is killing me the most is I am 60 pounds overweight. I have a huge dunlop and if I wear a t-shirt I tend to have that flap of tummy hanging out under it. (nice visual) I can't stand to look at myself in the mirror. It's not like I eat from morning till night. I do work out and have been doing the bike (I have exercise restrictions) and I have not lost an ounce.

Every once in a while I just figure I'll give in and be 300 pounds by the end of the year. None of my clothes fit and I just went up another waist size.

This just adds to the feeling that I have been a dissappointment to everyone, especially me.

Thoughts?