[nattygann]

Hello - I am new to this site. I came here seeking support - advise - a big hug - etc. I don't know if I officially have depression - I had some postpartum depression after a few of my kids - but that has been many many years ago. I have tried anti-depressant medications off and on during that period with very little to no help. I am not always down - nor do I cry a lot. What does happen to me is that when relationships or situations in my life seem less that ideal - I do a tail spin. I have a lot of negative self talk. I know i do many of the "stinking thinking" thought patterns. What is frustrating is that I am logically aware of all this - but seem helpless to fix it. One day I am coping with it all fine - and then I see a photo of a family member or friend or have a conversation with someone and it is straight downhill. By many outside aspects I am a regularly functioning and talented person. People do not see me an an underdog or someone who would have self-esteem issues - but those issues are there in abundance. I feel like I make progress and then a few days later I am back to square one. This circle pattern is really getting to me. Would love any insights......